The Power of Music

I still remember the first time I listened to the song Where’d You Go by Fort Minor. It was June of 2016, and I had just recently been diagnosed with Crohn’s disease and finished my last semester of high school. It had been a semester of overcoming pain and fatigue to drag the shell of my body across the high school finish line. With those less than stellar circumstances, I was overcome with emotion hearing the lyrics describe in words exactly how I was feeling: 

She said "Some days I feel like sh**,

Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"

 I cried then, and I still tear up occasionally listening to the song and thinking back on that period of my life. That is the power of music, the ability of the songwriter to share their feelings in a way that connects with another human. It grants the comfort of knowing that others have experienced the same things you are experiencing now. That can be powerful for those of us with IBD, because it can be so easy to feel isolated and alone in our struggles. 

Today, I want to take you through some songs I feel reflect the IBD experience for me. I encourage you to listen through the links as you read.

One song I keep going back to is Times Like These by Eden Project. The first verse starts out with what a lot of us feel sometimes:

It's been a long, long time

We've come a long, long way

No, I can't see the finish line, scared half to death, but that's okay

It's been a long, long night

After a long, long day

My body's aching, but I know somehow, my feet will find a way

I don’t know about y’all, but I can think of at least a dozen times I felt like this with my IBD. It can be so hard to try to imagine the finish line when the reality of your disease forces you to acknowledge the present instead of looking toward the future. And that is scary. When day and night you are exhausted just putting in the bare minimum effort, you can forget to look at the big picture. I don’t even have to tell you how much I relate to the body aching line. But the great part about this song is that it doesn’t end there. Near the end, the artist sings:

These are the times we will hold

In the silence, when I've given all of me

And it's alright that it's over

And I found fight, like a soldier coming home

In the silence, but I have never felt so free

The future's so bright, this is our time

And I'll live it how I dream

It is beautiful how the artist not only changes the lyrics to reflect the hope, but if you listen, the entire mood of the song changes as well. The tempo speeds up, the instruments are cheery, and there is a joy in the tone of the singer. I know when I had flares in the past, it didn’t feel like a time in my life worth remembering. But I do look back on those times in my life now and see how they shaped my future. I see how I was supported and loved by family and friends, and how it gave me a feeling of gratitude for every new day on Earth. Some days you won’t be able to see the finish line, but eventually you’ll look to the future and it will be so bright.

Another song I feel encapsulates the IBD experience is Mountain at My Gates by Foals. It starts out with this verse:

I see a mountain at my gates

I see it more and more each day

What I give, it takes away

Whether I go or when I stay

Doesn’t that just sound like the IBD experience? We have this mountain of IBD in front of us, and sometimes it feels like it takes away everything from our lives. The beautiful thing about this song is it is about overcoming that mountain. The second to last verse goes like this:

Oh, when I come to climb

Show me the mountain so far behind

Yeah, it's farther away

Its shadow gets smaller day after day

Sometimes our disease can just feel impossible to overcome. But one day we will come to climb, and we will have realized we have conquered that mountain. We will look back, and see all that we have accomplished. Whether it is overcoming a flare, graduating college, or just taking a shower this morning, we all have mountains ahead of us that are made more difficult to climb by our disease. That just makes the view that much better once we reach the top.

Please leave a comment with any song you felt has been an integral part of your IBD journey, I would love to give it a listen.

Overcoming Medical Trauma with IBD

I have anxiety. 

I am afraid to speak up, almost all the time.

I press my nails hard into my palms when I think about why I said “How are you?” too quietly. 

I bring this up because about one year ago, I had an allergic reaction to an infusion. I had been on this infusion for several months, almost a year at the time. At first, I stayed quiet about the symptoms I had been feeling for a couple of weeks leading up to it.

I think a part of me genuinely thought it was in my head. When people around you are constantly telling you your illness is your fault or that you look fine or that your symptoms are just your anxiety, you start to believe it. 

It started with red, blotchy spots all over my skin. Some days were worse than others and eventually, I went to see a dermatologist who prescribed me a topical medication and I didn’t think anything of it except for the occasional feeling of shame when the spots became more visible. 

At the infusion before my reaction, I remember just thirty minutes into it, I felt so sick. I could hear my heartbeat in my ears and everything felt slow. I remember trying to explain that I wasn’t feeling well and then downplayed it for just being tired because I’m used to doing that.

At my next appointment, the same thing happened. I started to cough and my lungs and throat felt itchy. I felt little ants all over me, starting at my feet all the way up to my chest. I stayed quiet still because I thought I was just making it up in my head until my nurse pointed out that I looked a little flushed. 

When I got up to go to the bathroom to check it out, with the IV machine trailing behind me, I stared at the mirror in absolute shock when I saw welts the size of quarters flooding my skin and hives spreading quickly across my chest and neck. My mother who was with me became panicked and called the nurse who immediately notified the doctor. 

I remember I started laughing hysterically because I was so afraid. The nurse quickly started Benadryl through my IV and I was just shaking because I felt so cold. The doctor was asking clarifying questions but they just sounded like echoes in my head. Eventually, the reaction subsided and I just layed there, stiff, with anxiety. 

What I didn’t know was that ever since that day, anytime I go to an infusion or take one of my medications I am so afraid of it happening again. I got lucky that my nurse noticed something was wrong before it was too late, but I can’t help but wonder if I had just spoken up earlier I could have avoided all of this in the first place.

But I want to stress that it is not your fault for not speaking up. Sometimes it can feel like anxiety is taking control over your life but every day you struggle with anxiety and still choose life, you are the one taking control of your life. 

I don’t feel guilty anymore for not speaking up then but now I understand that I deserve to speak up for myself now. I deserve to be heard. When it comes to your health, it is never just in your head. What I mean by that is whatever symptom you are feeling-- whether it be a physical manifestation of anxiety, racing thoughts, pain, discomfort-- those are all valid and not imaginative. 

The next time you feel too anxious to speak up, just remember that you deserve to be heard. 

This article is sponsored by Lyfebulb.

Lyfebulb is a patient empowerment platform, which centers around improving the lives of those impacted by chronic disease.

Caregivers: Spotlit in the Shadows

Recently, one of HONY’s long (12-part) post blew up, allowing another miracle to be added to the community’s ever-growing testament to human generosity and compassion. The posts follow the journey of Cristy’s Kitchen, through Cristy’s life, roles and perspective. A mother to 5 girls, she started experimenting with food recipes only when her first daughter started showing autoimmune illness signs as a teenager. It’s been made clear from her story that she first started her recipes, which have since garnered significant attention from many people all over the world, only because she wanted to help her daughters with their illnesses. Her life and actions speak of love, grit, determination, hope and faith, and I think some of us, as patients of autoimmune diseases, can relate to having people like her in our own lives, carrying us in our darkest moments.

 Caregivers undoubtedly play an immense role in a patient’s life. It can be argued that for chronic conditions like IBD, personal relationships with family, friends and significant others can ultimately only last if the relations juggle their roles between being caregivers and their normal roles (father, mother, sibling, significant other, friend). The mix of the uncertain characteristics of chronic autoimmune conditions with the current overburdened healthcare systems across the globe, caregivers are the ultimate backbone that help people survive not only through the physical realities, but also through the psychological, emotional, and financial turmoil. Yet for all we say about invisible diseases, not much is said about this significant invisible labor. Caregivers not only help us, patients, but are the unacknowledged help to doctors and hospitals, when they help buy time for diagnosis, and take our rollercoaster up-and-down rides with us.

  Caregivers: A South Asian Context

Generally, in south Asian communities, mothers already shoulder the huge burden of bringing up children and caring for their wellbeing, oftentimes even at the cost of their own health. For young adults with IBD in India, the role of the mother as a prominent caregiver is heightened and intensified for two main reasons: (1) overburdened private and public healthcare systems, (2) lack of mental health normalization and support infrastructure. It is also important to acknowledge, however, that prominent caregivers can also be fathers, older siblings and other family members just as much as mothers. It is normalized to blame these caregivers, more often than not mothers, for any “defects” that a child may have, whether that is due to the child not adhering to the community’s rules, or because the child is unable to perform in a way that the community deems fit. IBD and autoimmune conditions from a south Asian lens is widely considered a fault, and one that cannot be tolerated to come out of nothing, leading to further the idea of blaming the mother for not doing enough and/or failing to stop the illness. However, as patients, we eventually come to accept and acknowledge the curious nature of autoimmune diseases (that they cannot be predicted, nor caused or solved), and we witness not only our grit during hopeless times, but also frequently, the origin of that: the love, grit and hope our caregivers show. To have that labor and foundational support go unwitnessed and unpaid by the world around us is one thing, but hearing negative comments that place blame and point fingers is another. 

In my personal circumstances, my mother was the first person I revealed my symptoms to, the only person to accompany me to every doctor’s appointment and lab appointment, and stayed awake with me on countless nights as I turmoiled through the pain and bathroom visits during my flare ups. She outstandingly also showed up when I took the decision to spend a year in rural India, with limited and chaotic bathroom, food and water provisions, riddled me through my bursts of insecurity, and stood as an unwavering pillar of physical and emotional support when I was hospitalized. I can say for certain that I only survived ulcerative colitis and my year in rural India because of her. In my sibling’s case, my father went above and beyond being his main caregiver, and at times, mine too. And yet, while I try to distance myself repeatedly from the guilt of having an illness that has no clear cause, I also deal with people blaming my parents, trying their hardest to find a recipient for the blame. It is heartbreaking.

 These comments not only arise from common people, but can also show up in the tone and words from well-educated and trustworthy people, like doctors. While it may seem that the above actions are on the list of expected actions that a mother/caregiver has to carry out, it is important to highlight that it is absolutely not necessary and still constitutes labor and time that could be used elsewhere in return for payment. Additionally, from a productive economy/labor perspective, IBD patients are almost only “productive” to the economy due to the invisible support of their caregivers. This is yet another reason that begs policymakers over the globe to consider the unique circumstances of patients of chronic autoimmune diseases and recognize the unbeatable power of caregivers in their fight.

10 Things to Know If You're Recently Diagnosed with IBD

Newly diagnosed with IBD? I wish you knew these first.   

Growing up as a teenager, I was a perfectly healthy child. I ate regularly; I was active and a bright kid who never had any particular routine or lifestyle that I used to follow. But everything started turning upside down once I started seeing symptoms. An bigger tragedy was when I almost felt like the game had ended after being diagnosed. No! Not at all. The actual game starts only after the diagnosis. Our bodies are always changing with IBD. From one day to the next, we don’t know how we are going to feel or what is going to happen. So it is of the upmost importance to know yourself and your body first. Ignorance certainly isn’t bliss here. If you feel like IBD is ruling your life, it’s time to take back the control. Here are the 10 things which I would like to share with all those who are newly diagnosed with IBD:

1. Educate yourself: Knowledge is power. Understanding IBD leaves you better equipped and empowered to manage it. There are many patients out there without enough knowledge about their IBD. It’s our responsibility to know everything we can about our disease and also our bodies. Take the time to learn everything you can. Read and discuss as much as possible with your doctors. 

2. Track your symptoms and triggers: Learn about your own symptoms and triggers. Many doctors suggest maintaining a food diary so that your doctor may be able to use the data you gathered to help guide your treatment plan. We can understand our daily life and limit what happens to us by doing this. 

3. Never miss your regular follow ups: After reaching my first remission, I assumed I was completely cured and had stopped my regular check-ups and follow ups with my doctor. The penalty for being so ignorant came with a cost of having the next severe flare up within the next few months which completely drained me and pulled me back to square one. IBD is a disease which needs to be managed and if you feel symptom free, you are not cured, it’s just that your medicines are working and controlling your symptoms. So it is important to have regular consultations with your doctor and monitor the functioning of your systems. 

4. Make every appointment count: Be well prepared as to what you need to discuss with your doctor before hand as most of the appointments will be limited to 10-15 minutes and you tend to lose out on discussing important stuff. You can even jot down pointers on paper before entering the doctor's cabin. 

5. Don't be afraid to ask for more information: The time slot allotted for each appointment may be limited. That doesn't mean you need to limit your queries and clarifications. Make the best of that limited time. For instance, if you’re being treated with steroids, ask for detailed information about how this medication could influence how you feel, the side effects, mood swings, weight gain, and such.

6. Know your treatment: First, know what kind of treatment the doctor has put you on. Whether it is the traditional treatment or biologics or allopathy or any other alternative therapies. Understanding your treatment can help you know what is happening to your body and analyse your recovery rate to attain symptom free life by choosing the best that suits your body as what suits others may not you and vice versa.  

7. Emotional health is equally important as your physical health: There could be days when your entire body hurts and there is nothing you can do. There could even be days when you don’t even want to move because you are so exhausted. During those days it’s not easy to control your emotions as you tend to feel more low and helpless. But you can still fight back by choosing to feel “it's OK”. Don’t let your IBD control you.

8. Coping with Stress: Stress doesn’t cause IBD, but it can sometimes make symptoms worse. Stress relief is crucial if stress provokes your flare-ups. Learning how to cope with stress and anxiety isn’t always easy. But it’s really important for us to keep stress under control. Yoga, meditation and music could be a few tools that may be helpful in this. 

9. Reach out for help when needed: IBD can be an embarrassing disease. It’s normal to feel alone sometimes. At a young age, we are taught not to discuss what happens behind a bathroom door. This can leave those of us with IBD, feeling extremely isolated and even hopeless. This can impact our self-esteem and quality of life. It's utmost important to have some go to people who understand these challenges and support us in every step of our journey. 

10. Nutrition matters: Understand how your system works and choose what goes into it rightly. When the intestine is under attack, it has a hard time absorbing nutrients. Therefore it's important for us to be aware of what we eat. Follow a low residue diet to relieve abdominal pain and diarrhea. If you have strictures, it is especially important to avoid nuts, seeds, beans and kernels. 

These are few of the things which I feel we need to keep in mind and plan our lifestyle when newly diagnosed. Knowing these pointers at the initial stages makes our lives much easier.  

Ostomates and Intimate Relationships

Imagine you are in a relationship with a person and you want to take that relationship to the next  level by taking the step towards being physically intimate. You take off your shirt and you hear a  gasp. “What is that?” You look at your partner’s face and follow their gaze to your  torso and you realize something at that moment: you had never told your partner what it means to be an ostomate. Ostomates live with a part of an organ exposed outside of their body but  usually secured in an ostomy bag for the rest of their life. Although at first it is difficult to adapt to  this visible change, ostomates soon became comfortable and adapted to their routine well.  However, this new life for ostomates brings some changes to their personal life, especially to their  physical relationship with their partner. Both ostomates and their partners should take steps to understand about ostomy life and give each other the benefit of doubt to further improve their  relationship in a more intimate sense. 

An ostomate should prepare themself physically and mentally to discuss their condition with their  partner. This is important and necessary because post-surgery will bring a major change to their  body. Along with it, an ostomate may feel anxiety, fear and concern about their body. Ostomates have to express their fear and worry to their partners to alleviate their distress of this new  situation. An ostomate should understand that they can never ignore and hide their stoma from their partner forever. They should initiate small talks with their partner especially when they are ready  to engage in physical intimacy after surgery. They can talk about what happened with the surgery,  how the post-surgery life looks like, what is a stoma and how it looks like, ostomy pouch and what  it does and how they change it and so on. These small conversations will directly educate their  partner about what kind of changes an ostomate is going through and give them insights into what  being an ostomy means to their relationship. An ostomate can take the following steps in order to  engage in sexual life with their partner. 

• Take time and slowly expose the pouch and stoma to your partner. Your partner may show  reactions such as shocked, scared, or even curious. Or they may not show any reactions  as they are not sure on how to react to a stoma. They may not be sure on how to react  also. Don’t get angry or disappointed with their reaction or lack of reaction in some cases.  Most of the time, a partner will worry that they may hurt the stoma and dislodge the equipment during intercourse. Be patient and tell them how it does not affect your sexual life and how they can help you so it does not hurt during intercourse. Give your partner  more time to ensure they feel safe, secure and comfortable to be together with you. 

• Take care of your pouch. The type of pouch plays a role in ostomate sexual life. It  will be good if you wear a non-transparent pouch. Non-transparent pouch prevents your  partner from seeing the exposed stoma and the contents of your pouch. The reason is,  they might be scared to engage in sex when they see your stoma. So try a non-transparent pouch or alternatively you can buy or design your own “pouch covers”. Pouch covers can  become a fashion statement and it can make you feel good too. Additionally, ensure your pouch is empty before engaging in intercourse. This is crucial to ensure there is no leakage  or unpleasant smell during intercourse. You have to keep everything clean and neat  beforehand to make it comfortable for both yourself and your partner.

• Monitor your diet before engaging in sexual activities. See which food helps you and which  does not. A good diet can lead to an improved sexual relationship between you and your  partner. Avoid foods that create gas and odor especially beans, broccoli, corn, cabbage,  and peas. Experiment about which food causes bad reactions and gas to you and avoid  them or at least eat them sparingly. This will prevent your stoma pouch filling with gas. To  keep it safe, try to use a gas filter pouch as this will keep your pouch flat and deodorize the gas. 

An ostmate’s partner can also take several steps to ensure their relationship with their ostomate  partner is healthy and good. As ostomates, they might go through a difficult time adjusting and even fear rejection. So, as a partner, be patient and give them time. As an ostomate’s partner, you can follow  the following steps to have a better intimate relationship with them. 

• Don’t jump into a sexual relationship right after their surgery. You should remember that  ostomy is considered major surgery and your ostomate partner needs time to adjust to  their new normal. The surgery does not only put stoma outside but there is a high  possibility of bowel and fistula track removal for those who have Inflammatory Bowel  Disease (IBD). Your partner definitely need considerable amount of time to heal and gain  back strength following their surgery. 

• Be mindful of your reactions and try not to create any distance with them. Your ostomate  partner may feel rejected and feel lonely. Communication is the key solution in any issue.  If your partner does not initiate their post-surgery life, try to initiate that conversation  yourself. For instance, discuss with your partner about physical intimacy and experiment  with different positions so that they may not feel uncomfortable. Keep in mind that most stoma patients will not engage in intercourse for weeks or months after surgery. 

• Seek professional advice from sex consultants, Enterostomal Therapy (ET) nurses, or IBD  advocates to educate yourself about your partner's sexual issues. Generally,  professionals will provide solutions to improve on both you and your partners’ emotions  and also how to manage your sexual life. Professionals may not solve the core problem  for you but they will be able to provide suggestions, or solutions from their research and  work with other patients. They can also talk about your concerns, make you understand  your feelings better and give meaningful and constructive advice for you. 

Being intimate is highly possible for an ostomate and their partner if both take time with their new  situation and be supportive of each other.  Be positive and engage in activities that make you happy and healthy. When you find a new  partner, talk to them about your ostomate life and be open to answer questions honestly.  Communicating with each other about your needs, wants, concerns and fears can go a long way  in ensuring a healthy and meaningful life together.

IBD, Mental Health, and Diet

Have you ever had a gut feeling before? Maybe you’ve had butterflies in your stomach when taking a risk, or felt something in the pit of your stomach when receiving bad news. Are these just idioms, or is there something else there? On my journey to become a registered dietitian, the connection between food and physical health is a common theme. Something we talk about much less is the connection between food and mental health. While Inflammatory Bowel Disease (IBD) is often thought of as a physical disease, the mental impact cannot be ignored. In my opinion, we don’t talk enough about the IBD and mental health connection, and we certainly don’t talk enough about how food can play a role in this aspect of our disease.

Mental Health and Gut Health

What does gut health have to do with mental health? Strap on your helmet, it's time for a crash course in the connection between gut health and the brain. The gut has over 500 million nerves, which serve as a two way communication system with the brain. If your gut isn’t happy, you better believe it is going to let its good friend the brain know about it. Our guts are also responsible for producing neurotransmitters, which help to regulate physical and mental functions of the body. One important neurotransmitter that regulates mood, serotonin, is produced 95% in the intestines! Another one, GABA, can be produced by the friendly bacteria in the gut, and can help reduce feelings of anxiety, depression, and fear.

Mental Health and IBD

As you can see, the gut and the brain are basically best buds. But what does that mean for people whose guts are broken more frequently than the McDonalds ice cream machine? Unfortunately, IBD patients are at an increased risk for developing anxiety and depression, and frankly, can you blame us? We are forced to bear the burden of a lifelong chronic disease, often being diagnosed during some of the most mentally vulnerable stages of our lives. High school is hard enough without explaining why you spend half of every class in the bathroom. It might seem like the connection between intestinal health and brain health is bad news, but there is a silver lining. If we can change the health of our gut, we can change the health of our brain.

Diet and Mental Health in Healthy Individuals

In healthy individuals, certain diets have been shown to increase feelings of wellbeing, reduce feelings of depression, and improve psychological health. Both individual foods such as fruits and vegetables, as well as dietary patterns such as the mediterranean diet, have been linked to these benefits. Some foods are also associated with worse mental health. Sugar has been linked with mood disorders and depression. Excess sugar consumption is also associated with dysbiosis, a shift in the composition of the gut bacteria from helpful to harmful species.

Diet and Mental Health in IBD

In a study presented at Digestive Disease Week 2020, researchers categorized IBD patients into two groups, a high sugar group (>100 grams per day) and a low sugar group (<100 grams per day). They found that those in the high sugar group had increased feelings of fatigue, trouble with social engagement, feelings of depression, and trouble relaxing compared to IBD patients in the low sugar group.

It is important to note that sugar containing whole foods such as fruit have been strongly linked to positive health outcomes, and should be considered differently than sugars from processed foods. Added sugars from processed foods such as soda or candy are associated with an unhealthy gut, and worse overall health.

I think this is such an important study, not only because it has practical implications for IBD patients, but also because it opens doors for patients to take control of their own mental health. I don’t think I've ever had a conversation with any GI doctor about mental health, despite the increased risk we carry with IBD. Until that changes, it is reassuring to know that we have the option to eat in a way that is associated with good gut health, and therefore good mental health.

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What I Wish My Newly-Diagnosed Self Knew

Sitting in the patient chair, hearing your doctor say “you have Inflammatory Bowel Disease” can be terrifying and change your life in a matter of seconds. These words come with both a massive feeling of relief and validation, knowing that your symptoms are not just in your head and that you will finally receive the help you deserve. But, along with this relief, comes terrifying thoughts, too many google searches, and the realization that you will have this diagnosis for the rest of your life. Feelings such as anxiety, fear, and loneliness follow with no sense of direction. When looking back at my newly diagnosed self, I wish I could hug her and tell her everything I know now.

It‘s not your fault 

The guilt that comes with a new diagnosis is unexplainable. My mind wandered, time and time again, over what I might have done to cause my diagnosis. Was it loving toaster strudels as a kid and eating a few too many? Was I too stressed at my internship? Was it previous medications that disrupted the microbiome in my gut? The truth is, you can let your mind wander for as long as it wants, but you are NOT the reason behind your illness and you are NOT at fault. Many people, including myself, strongly believe and are determined that everything has a purpose and that everything happens for a reason. Although some may argue this belief, obsessing over what may have caused your diagnosis and blaming yourself will do nothing but harm. Inflammatory bowel disease is not the result of a bad decision or bad karma, and something that is most important to understand is that you are not to blame. Once you come to peace with your diagnosis and become confident in the unknown, you will begin to heal in ways you never have before. 

The importance of your healthcare team 

As a young adult diagnosed with Crohn’s disease, I was scared, lonely and afraid. After years of fighting for a doctor to take me seriously, I felt unworthy of receiving proper treatment and advocating for myself to my healthcare team. With help from a handful of individuals, I slowly realized that I should be looked after by healthcare professionals that listen, support, and are trustworthy. Not only does this apply to gastroenterologists, but also to other medical professionals that make up your healthcare team. If your gastroenterologist does not support you and undermines your symptoms, shop around for a new gastroenterologist that makes you feel comfortable, heard and safe. Additionally, a gastroenterologist is not the only medical professional that should be on your team. If you are able, reach out to a dietician, nutritionist, or naturopath certified in food nutrition to receive guidance on diet, food choices, vitamins, and supplements to support your health. Lastly, do not be afraid to seek out help for your mental health. The stress that comes with a new diagnosis can be extremely heavy, and for some, stress can aggravate GI symptoms and flares. The best decision I made was seeing a therapist to help me through my past traumas and transition into entering society post-diagnosis while dealing with debilitating symptoms. A wide range of healthcare professionals will allow you to thrive and succeed in ways you didn't even know were possible. Here in Canada, dieticians, nutritionists, naturopaths, and therapists are not covered by OHIP. If you do have insurance, these types of professionals are usually covered. If you are not able to cover the costs for these additional healthcare professionals, reach out to your GI to see if there are any subsidized or low-cost options available to you. Also, many universities and colleges offer free or low-cost therapists and nutrition counselling. 

Find your support group 

An Inflammatory Bowel Disease diagnosis is scary and may leave you feeling as if you need to be independent through this journey as you don’t want to burden others. Putting up a wall and pretending like you are fine is something I did more times than I should have after my diagnosis. I had such a hard time being vulnerable and admitting I was not ok. With that being said, the best thing I could have done was confide in a few trusted friends and family members. Opening up to my loved ones allowed me to feel more comfortable asking for help when it was needed and having a safe space to vent. Opening up to my support system allowed me to express my fears and challenges, gave me the opportunity to have someone join me at healthcare appointments and to also receive help when I was flaring. 

If you are located in Canada, Crohn’s and Colitis Canada not only offers regional support groups where you can meet fellow peers with IBD, but they also offer a mentorship program where you have the opportunity to be mentored by someone who is experienced in navigating the hardships of IBD. Additionally, reach out to your schools accessibility centre to find out if there are any IBD groups with individuals around your age to network with. Lastly, joining Facebook or Instagram pages that connect others with IBD is a great way to speak to people who understand what you are going through.

Grief    

As a newly diagnosed young adult, the negative feelings and thoughts of living with a chronic disease for the rest of your life can be endless. Dealing with healthcare appointments and debilitating symptoms that not many other young adults experience can leave you feeling defeated and hopeless. Something important that I have learned throughout my journey is that it’s important to sit in those feelings and take the time you need to process them. Take time to grieve your old life and the life you pictured for yourself, but also remember everything positive that this diagnosis will give you. You will be stronger, resilient, and more empathetic to those around you. You will view the world in such a way that you never have before, and you will become more intuitive with your body and mind through this journey. If your feelings of grief become overwhelming, reach out to a trusted friend, family member or a mental health professional. Although my diagnosis has been challenging to say the least, I promise you there are things my diagnosis has given me that I am beyond grateful for and I wish I was reassured of when I was newly diagnosed. 

To the newly diagnosed IBD warriors, you are amazing, resilient and strong. An unpredictable and serious diagnosis such as IBD will be challenging and difficult, but you are not alone and you never will be.

The Patient-Doctor Relationship

Why is a good relationship with the doctor important for patients?

Have you ever considered how your relationship with you doctor affects your health?

“There is no cure. Only control of the disease symptoms”. How many times have you heard this? How harsh does it sound, especially the first time?  

Are you ready to build a new relationship, a completely different relationship with your doctor? This relationship will be unlike any other relationship and certainly no one has experienced it again until the time of diagnosis. 

This is a long-term relationship that will evolve over time. Your doctor will know many things about your personal life, your job, your family, etc. Above all, however, over time, he or she will learn YOU, and your personality. 

And why this is important?

As a patient you have to break down the wall around you and allow the doctor to enter your world, the world of your disease and how you experience it, even for a while. Of course, the doctor must have the empathy required for that.

This will not happen overnight. It may take years to build this relationship. As this relationship begins to build, you will feel the doctor as a member of your family, you will share with him or her important moments. 

Is always the relationship between patient and doctor like that?

Unfortunately, no - however, I deeply appreciate those doctors who patiently and carefully support patients with chronic diseases. It’s nice to see a person being 100% present.

Journaling with IBD: A Focus on Mental Health

During 2020’s intermittent quarantine, what has brought me more solace than anything is the act of journaling. As someone who was diagnosed with Crohn’s disease during the pandemic, much of my hospital experience was drastically different than others. Increasingly isolated from my loved ones, I could feel the weight of my diagnosis crushing me, the four walls of my hospital single closing in. 

For IBD patients specifically, mental health is tied so closely to our physical health. I’ve had days where my physical flare-ups make me double over; it’s no coincidence that those same days, my mood swings and sensitivity levels are out of control. In fact, this phenomenon is so common that there’s an actual term for it: the gut-brain connection. 

The gut-brain connection refers to how changes in our gut can have drastic impacts on how we feel and behave. Many tend to dichotomize our bodily systems, finding it hard to believe that our behaviors and moods can be swayed by what we eat and how our gut reacts. This is explained  by what’s called ‘bi-directional’ communication, in which our gut and brain talk to each other using different pathways. 

Re-focusing energy is powerful. With enough time, journaling can become a way to channel your energies into finding peace and introspection. What’s best about all this is that journaling can take any form you want it to. It’s simply a way to get your thoughts out on the page. Humans absorb so much information and stimuli during their waking hours; life, as it turns out, can be overwhelming at any point in time, regardless of an IBD diagnosis or not. 

Journaling should be a way to relieve stress, a way to declutter your mind. I’ve found it especially helpful to process my physical and mental pain; even doodling can help distract your mind for a few minutes. Especially for patients with IBD, a journal can be a place to record symptoms, reflect on treatments, or even track what foods you’re eating (Check out this article on how to start a food diary by David, a 2021 CCYAN Fellow!)

All you need is a notebook, even just a piece of paper, and a pen or pencil. Some people find it helpful to pair a journaling session with a few minutes of meditation: this is your choice! Whatever makes you feel the most grounded and relaxed. 

Here are a few journaling prompts to get you started:

How are you feeling right now? 

What does your body need? 

What is giving you energy? What is taking your energy?

What are you grateful for, at this moment?

What are some themes in your life right now? (rest, peace, healing, etc.)

Things that feel heavy today; things you can try and release today.

What do you need to let go of in order to move forward and grow?

What beliefs and assumptions are holding you back?

What do you have to be proud of? 

Where are you feeling stuck? Where are you feeling growth?

Celebrating Black History Month in the IBD Community

“Representation creates trust, so why aren’t there more people who look like me included in research and education?” This quote by Melodie Narain-Blackwell brilliantly describes the feelings that so many Black and brown IBD patients have. In recognition of Black History Month, what can we as a chronic illness community do to support our fellow Black IBD patients this month? Standing in solidarity with this marginalized community, helping amplify their voices, and acknowledging their experiences are ways to starting bridging those gaps. 

It is important to support BIPOC patients by recognizing the additional barriers that minorities, especially those in the Black community, face when navigating medical care and public health. Historically, Black people have been marginalized, abused, experimented on, and underrepresented in medical trials and research. Being seen as easily disposable, Black people have had to endure the systemic injustices of medical discrimination and medical racism. Crohn’s and ulcerative colitis are chronic diseases that statistically occur less frequently in African-Amercian populations. Statistics also show that Black people are more likely to not have their symptoms believed or validated, which has ushered a crisis of misdiagnoses. It is clear that implicit bias and antiquated medical beliefs are factors in the hesitation that Black people experience in the medical field. This phenomenon has led to an inherent distrust of medical institutions and treatment in the black community. As IBD patients we understand that having the right diagnosis and starting treatment is vital for healing and longevity. This concern is magnified in the Black community due to the systemic injustices previously mentioned.

 When I first started to become ill in 2019, I did have some internal generational trauma that made me hesitant when seeking medical care. After months and months of pain I finally decided to go to the hospital to get some answers. When speaking to the doctor about symptoms, I vividly remember feeling an overwhelming sense of unease rattle through my bones. What happens if my experiences and symptoms aren't taken seriously? How can I truly convey the severity of how I feel? Although I did not receive a proper diagnosis from the hospital, I was lucky enough to have the staff members at the hospital believe and validate me. I was privileged that this was not an overtly terrible experience, but it does not take away from any reservations I had, as well as the reservations that countless other Black people have. 

We must acknowledge and hold space for Black people within the IBD community through advocacy. Having a diverse range of anecdotes and stories will only propel this community to further embrace the lived experiences of so many Black and brown people who are voiceless. Education and conscious activism will only lead to more positive intersectional change. 

In recognition and celebration of Black History Month, here are a few black pioneers in the IBD community as well as Gastroenterology:

Sadye Beatryce Curry was the first female African-American gastroenterologist in the United States. On top of her endless list of accomplishments, she was a founding member of the Leonidas Berry Society for Digestive Disease as well as the first woman to be elected chair for the Internal Medicine Section of the National Medical Association.

Leonidas Berry was the first African-American gastroenterologist in the United States as well as a pioneer for the advancement of endoscopy procedures. Dr. Berry also invented the gastroscopy scope. Leonidas Berry has a passion for bridging the gap of racial problems in public health. 

Gary Richter is a gastroenterologist and currently runs Consultative Gastroenterology in Atlanta, and has become the first African-American president of the Medical Association of Atlanta. 

Melodie Narain-Blackwell is the founder of Color of Crohn’s and Chronic Illness (COCCI) which is a nonprofit focused on increasing quality of life for minorities who battle IBD and related chronic illnesses.