Advocating for IBD

by Lexi Hanson (Missouri, U.S.A.)

A beige and black graphic titled “Advocating for IBD.” An arrow is in the middle of the page, pointing right. Text included below.

Why is IBD Important to Advocate for?

  • IBD (including Crohn’s disease and ulcerative colitis) affects millions worldwide and can severely impair quality of life.

  • Often diagnosed in teens and young adults, IBD can affect people during the most critical stages of personal and professional development.

  • Because IBD involves bowel symptoms, people often avoid talking about it, leading to shame and isolation.

Lasting impacts from IBD

  • High rates of anxiety and depression are associated with IBD due to its unpredictable nature and social limitations.

  • IBD leads to significant healthcare costs, lost productivity, and financial strain for individuals. 

  • Access to proper diagnosis, treatment, and ongoing care is not equal across regions and populations. 

How can we Advocate?

  • Share personal stories and facts through social media, blogs, podcasts, and public events (especially during awareness months).

  • Advocate for policies that ensure better healthcare access, insurance coverage, and medical leave protections for those with chronic illnesses. 

  • Form or join local or online support groups to connect patients, caregivers, and allies.

Listening to Your Body with IBD: The Stoplight System

by Michelle Garber (California, U.S.A.)

A stoplight with red, yellow, and green lights is illuminated on a dark blue night sky.

When you're living with Inflammatory Bowel Disease (IBD), your body becomes its own navigation system. Your body is constantly sending you signals, just like traffic lights do. But unlike the red, yellow, and green lights on the road that we instantly respond to, many of us with IBD have learned to ignore or minimize the "rules" or "drills" that we should follow when our body sends us our own, personal warning signs. 

So why is it that we respect a blinking car dashboard, a low battery warning on our electronic devices, and traffic signals/signs more than the signals coming from our own bodies? We wouldn’t ignore our car’s check engine light for weeks (and if we did, we’d expect it to eventually break down). So why do we ignore our body’s warnings? Why don't we listen? As with most things, the answer is complicated

Here are a few reasons why as people living with IBD, we might forget to listen to these warnings, or try to “push past” them:

  • Living with IBD means that a few warning lights are always on. That is, we might always have some level of fatigue, bloating, or discomfort. This "always-on" background noise becomes our new normal, and we stop noticing when new signals show up. This is risky because it can lead to ignoring major warning signs or missing slow-building flare-ups.

  • Our symptoms can become our new normal or "background noise," so we're used to pushing through pain. This means that even when our bodies give us that "red" or "yellow" light signal to slow down or stop due to a symptom/pain that is out of the ordinary, we are still conditioned to push through it. For a lot of us, that is a survival mechanism of having chronic pain (pain that never fully becomes "background noise") in a medical system and society that often tells us to "push through." The world is constructed for those who are able-bodied, and having chronic pain/IBD can force us to sink or swim.

  • We are often taught to minimize our symptoms, for ourselves and others. Sometimes, doctors dismiss our warning signs, maybe because medical literature doesn't acknowledge all the intricate traffic signals for IBD. Maybe, they're just burned out. Or, maybe doctors—and people in general—can't fully understand the severity of IBD symptoms if they haven't gone through it themselves. Whatever the reason, though, we are conditioned to minimize our symptoms. We are taught that our illness "could be worse." In fact, when explaining IBD to others who don't quite listen closely enough, the false notion that IBD is simply "stomach problems" circulates. So much so that we, ourselves, sometimes say this to others or even believe it ourselves. We don't want to be sick. We wish it was just stomach problems. Being told that our personal traffic lights/signals are simply a result of "anxiety" or "are in our heads" make it easy to eventually believe it ourselves because, why would we want to be sick?

  • We don’t want to "miss out." Sometimes, we’d rather have a moment of fun—followed by a flare/low-spoons day—than not experience the fun at all. Ignoring the signals can sometimes feel "worth it" since it can give us a small glimpse of what "normal" might be like. We are forever torn between the notions of "respect your body's limits" and "you only live once."

  • Finding a way to make a choice, despite the consequences, can feel liberating in the short-term. This can look like eating a food that you know isn't "safe" just because you want to make a CHOICE and have autonomy over your own body. As IBD patients, choice is often not in our vocabulary – so pushing through the pain of IBD is often the only way we can feel slightly in control of our own bodies. This is a sense of freedom that we greatly lack as IBD patients.

  • We don't want to be a “burden.” IBD, in itself, is a burden that we already have to carry. Living with it every day is extremely difficult, and that is an understatement. Even so, we still notice how it affects those around us— our caregivers, partners, family members, friends, co-workers, employers, and even doctors. Carrying the burden alone is never the solution, but it sometimes seems like the right one since it feels wrong to allow someone else to feel even remotely similar to us. It doesn't feel right to allow anyone to be down in the trenches with us—at infusion appointments, at ER visits, at ICU admissions, or at "bathroom sleepovers." It doesn't feel right to allow anyone to feel so wrong, even if they want to. Therefore, we ignore the signs, because if we took action that would mean that we'd need help, whether we like it or not. We'd have to reach out to someone, even if that's just a doctor. Simply alerting your doctor that you've failed another biologic can make you feel like a burden since you might feel as though you're giving them more work. Reaching out to loved ones can be even harder as they will often want to be there for you, and you simply don't want to burden anyone anymore.

  • We’re afraid of what we’ll find if we stop and really listen. As previously mentioned, we don't want to be sick again. We don't want to discover a new co-morbidity again. We don't want to switch medications again. We don't want to be flaring again. We don't want to go to the hospital again. We don't want to experience medical trauma again. We don't want to put life on pause again. We don't want to miss out again. We don't want to be a burden again. We don't want to lose control again. Listening to your body, and truly paying attention to what it's telling you poses the risk of you having to accept the fact that you might have to go through all of these things again. And at the end of the day, we just want to livefreely. It feels like a constant tug-of-war between surviving and actually living

The truth is: Your body will always tell you what it needs. It’s just your job to check in—gently and consistently. 

Since there is no cure for IBD yet, much of this disease has to do with symptom monitoring and, thus, taking as many preventative measures as possible. I, for one, know that I would like to stay in remission and avoid a flare-up for as long as possible. Even so, I know that's only possible if I listen to my body—genuinely listen. Whether that's taking note of unusual fatigue or nausea, a new sensitivity to food, etc., these are acts of listening to your body and its signals.  While we are taught from a young age what traffic lights mean and why it's important to follow them, we aren't taught how to notice and follow the signals that our bodies give us.

A few simple things that you can do to start the practice of ‘checking in’ with yourself and your body: 

  • Create your own ‘traffic light:’ write down some of the signs you notice, when you’re feeling ‘green, yellow, or red!’

  • Set aside a few minutes each day to ask yourself: What "color" am I today? What makes me that color? What am I feeling, and where am I feeling it? If I’m yellow or red, what needs to change? If I’m green, what can I do to stay there? 

Not sure where to start? Here’s an example of my “traffic lights,” and some of the signals I use to check in with myself and my body!

A light blue background with a boarder of green triangles. The text reads “Green means you’re good to go! It doesn’t mean you’re “cured.” With IBD, there’s no one-size-fits-all version of wellness/remission, but it means your body is operating at a manageable and comfortable baseline. When you’re in green, lean into it! Move your body (if you can), make plans, enjoy safe foods, and take note of what helps you stay in this zone. Celebrate ‘green days’ without guilt. They are precious!” There are bullet points with “green light signs” below, the text reads “No Signs of Infection or Illness, Up-to-date on Medications, Overall Mental Clarity, Overall Emotional Stability, Doctor Cleared for Basic Activities, Feeling Energized/Rested, Eating Well-Tolerated Foods, Regular Bowel Movements, Healthy Consistency of Stool, Medications Working Effectively, No Incontinence, No Urgent Bowel Movements, Stable Lab Work, Hydrated, No Constipation, and Minimal Pain/Bloating.” Scattered throughout the page are graphics of a stoplight, a full gas symbol, a fully charged battery, and a green thumbs up."

A light blue background with yellow and black caution tape boarder. The text reads “Yellow is your caution zone. You’re not necessarily flaring, but your body is whispering (or maybe even raising its voice a little). Yellow can be subtle and easy to dismiss, but it’s the most important time to pay attention. In the yellow zone, it’s time to pause and reassess. This may mean: Canceling plans, taking a rest day, eating safe/bland foods, booking a doctor’s appointment, requesting follow-up lab work, reintroducing self-care routines, and more. Yellow isn’t failure. Yellow is wisdom. You’re responding to your body before things worsen. Think of it as preventative maintenance.” There are bullet points with “yellow light signs” below, the text reads “Borderline Lab Results, Mild Changes in Appetite, Changes in Digestion, Low Mood/Increased Anxiety, Sleep Disturbances, Mouth Ulcers, Chronic Nausea, Slight Fatigue/Brain Fog (Not Explained by Medications), Slightly More Frequent/Urgent Bowel Movements, Mild but Persistent Abdominal Discomfort, Decent Consistency of Stool, Mild Joint Pain/Inflammation, Migraines/Headaches, Changes in Skin (Inflammation, Acne, etc.), Worsening Menstrual or Premenstrual Symptoms, or Chronic Bloating.” There are graphics of a yellow stoplight, a half-full gas symbol, a ‘low battery,’ and warning/slow signs.

A light blue background with red EKG patterned boarder. The text reads “Red means something is wrong. It's time to STOP everything else and prioritize your health immediately. This is where IBD forces you to pay attention, whether you’re ready or not. Red means it’s time to: contact your gastroenterologist, take time off school/work, let someone else step in to care for you, follow strict diet/symptom-management protocols, reevaluate or switch medications, get imaging or scopes done, advocate HARD for yourself if you’re not being heard, and go to the ER or urgent care if needed. Red is scary, but it doesn’t mean failure. It means your body is fighting hard and needs you to listen.” There are bullet points with “red light signs” below, the text reads “Ongoing/Sudden Incontinence or Urgent Bowel Movements, Labwork w/ Significant Abnormalities (i.e. Inflammation or Anemia), Complete Loss of Appetite/Ability to Eat, Sudden/Dramatic Weight Loss, Emotional Overwhelm, Not Responding to Medications, Severe Abdominal Pain, Blood in Stool, Mucus in Stool, Dehydration, Fever, Vomiting, or Extreme Fatigue.” There are graphics of a red stoplight, empty fuel tank, ‘stop’ and ‘warning’ signs, and a red low battery symbol.

A few things to remember/keep in mind: 

  • Checking in doesn’t mean obsessing. It simply means being mindful enough to care. Just like we do for our phones, our cars, and our jobs—we deserve to offer ourselves the same level of awareness, support, and maintenance.

  • Living with IBD doesn’t mean you’ll always be stuck in red or yellow. Some days are green—some weeks or months, even. You deserve to honor those days as much as you manage the hard ones.

  • This stoplight system isn’t about fear. It’s about empowerment. You are not weak for needing rest, medical support, caregiving, or time. You are wise for knowing when to go, when to slow down, and when to stop.

Your body isn’t the enemy—it’s the messenger. Listen to it. Trust it. Respond with love. Your body is doing the best it can to keep you alive. Let’s return the favor.

Image from @tsvetoslav on Unsplash.

My Crohn’s Journey as a College Student

by Alexis Gomez (California, U.S.A.)

Two side-by-side photos of Alexis, a young woman with medium-brown skin and dark brown hair. There is a graphic of a curvy yellow arrow, pointing from the first photo to the second. The photo on the left is from Alexis’ freshman year of college, after just being diagnosed with IBD. Alexis is standing in front of a wall of ivy, wearing comfortable clothes. She is smiling, but looks pale and tired, with a bit of prednisone “moon face.” The photo on the right is from Alexis’ college graduation. She stands in front of a walkway with many arches, wearing a blue graduation cap and gown, with a yellow stole, and is smiling widely.

When I was younger, I had a vision of what my college experience would look like. It was more or less in line with what I saw in movies and TV shows – living away from home, making lots of friends, joining tons of clubs, going to clubs, perhaps finding the love of my life, maintaining my straight-A academic excellence, and knowing without a doubt that my future was secure.

I had always been a planner, always thinking ten steps ahead of where I was in the present. For as long as I could remember, I prided myself on being independent, meticulous, and motivated to succeed. I thought I had it all figured out, and that all I had to do was check off the boxes of my to-do list toward success. It was so simple, so straightforward… until it wasn’t.

What I never could have predicted or hyper-planned for was being diagnosed with a chronic illness at the age of eighteen. Shortly before starting my first year as an undergraduate student, I began experiencing symptoms of IBD. And throughout the course of my first quarter at school, my symptoms worsened. I had constant abdominal pain, urgent and frequent bowel movements with blood up to ten times a day, and a deep sense of shame that stopped me from telling anyone. Whenever I was with my friends and I had to use the bathroom, I’d laugh it off and say I just had “tummy problems.” The thought of telling anyone what I was actually experiencing felt terrifying because I didn’t have a clear answer for what was happening. I felt like it was my fault that I was experiencing these gastrointestinal issues; like I had somehow inflicted this on myself, and that just maybe it would go away if I ate healthier and prayed more.

As someone with a family history of IBD, there came a point where I knew deep down what was happening. I had been in denial for several months, thinking that there was no way I would have to live with a chronic illness forever. It couldn’t happen to me, I thought. Why me? This wasn’t what was in my perfectly thought-out and extensive plans for an amazing future. With every acute misdiagnosis from my doctors, I simultaneously felt frustrated but also held onto hope that I’d just suddenly start to get better.

During finals week of my first quarter of undergrad, I couldn’t hide or ignore my symptoms anymore. The burning pain in my abdomen reached a new level of severity, and I was overcome with weakness and fatigue. I could barely eat anything, and I couldn’t stand up without getting heart palpitations and being out of breath.

My mom helped me schedule an appointment for a colonoscopy to finally see what was going on and to confirm what I had been suspecting. The weeks I had to spend waiting leading up to the colonoscopy were tough. I rapidly lost weight (over 40 pounds within 2-3 weeks), I could barely get food or liquids down without vomiting, I would spend hours on the toilet trying to get some sort of relief from my abdominal pain (often with no success), my mouth was perpetually as dry as the Sahara, my eyes looked bloodshot and inflamed, and I couldn’t walk anymore. As I waited, I felt my autonomy and my identity slipping away from me. How could I be the daughter whom my parents knew was responsible, and who they didn’t have to worry about? How could I be the older sister to my younger brother, who always looked up to me, the older sister who could always provide a listening ear, comfort, and advice? I didn’t know who I was when I couldn’t even serve myself food, put my plate in the sink, walk myself to the bathroom, bathe myself, or brush my own hair. I didn’t know who I was without my independence. And I felt an overwhelming wave of guilt for putting my loved ones in a position where they had to do everything for me and see me suffering every single day.

I remember being in the recovery room after my colonoscopy and hearing my doctor say something that would change my life forever. In an oddly cheery tone, he said: “Well, Alexis, it looks like you have Crohn’s Disease!” I remember being 1) shocked initially, 2) put off by his cheerfulness, but also 3) relieved. Hearing that I had Crohn’s was scary, but I also knew I finally had an answer. I didn’t have to hide behind the curtain of the unknown or the inability to explain why I had the symptoms I did. I knew Crohn’s was an autoimmune disease, meaning that my body had one day mistakenly begun to attack its own healthy cells. It wasn’t just something I ate, it wasn’t going to just go away on its own, and it wasn’t my fault that it happened.

Although I was fortunate to respond well to the first biologic treatment I tried, my Crohn’s diagnosis came with other complications. The several weeks spent with untreated chronic inflammation and prolonged immobility led me to develop blood clots (deep vein thrombosis, aka DVTs) that also traveled to my lungs (pulmonary embolisms, aka PEs). I remember being hospitalized during my second quarter of undergrad, in the middle of midterms, and frantically emailing my professors for extensions as I was in the ICU.

About a month after my hospitalization, my hair began falling out in chunks. It felt like I had reached a new low, and I couldn’t recognize myself anymore when I looked in the mirror. Even though my Crohn’s was responding well to my treatment, the other comorbidities that came with it, though temporary, were just as difficult and scary to navigate. Throughout this period of time, I had somehow managed to continue being a student, attending lectures and discussion sections through Zoom during a COVID spike in California when students were given the option to attend classes either online or in person. However, as spring quarter rolled around, and students at my university were required to be back in person, I knew I wasn’t well enough to return to campus. I had to withdraw from the university for the quarter – a decision that wasn’t easy. Still being a student had felt like the last bit of normalcy in my life. Now, all I could focus on, all I had to focus on, was my health.

Throughout the spring and summer, things gradually got better. I had fully weaned off prednisone and was in remission with my biologic. I was able to eat again and my bowel habits were great. My blood clots were being monitored as I was on anticoagulant medication. I was going to physical therapy to relearn how to walk, and with every week, my gait looked and felt better. My steroid ‘moonface’ had subsided and finally, my hair started to grow back.

By the time fall came around, my health seemed to have made a miraculous comeback. All my labs were fantastic and my doctors told me that I was doing everything right. My friends and family would tell me how they had been thinking of me, praying for me, and how they were so happy to see me better. It made me feel proud of myself and my resilience. I felt grateful to be alive.

I started to prepare to go back to school after having been out for six months, which felt like a long time to me as someone who had always prioritized school and getting good grades since I was a child. I wanted to leave the dark period of my life I had just gone through behind – a period where I had felt so isolated, helpless, angry, depressed, and like I didn’t want to be here anymore. I wanted to move forward, to be normal again, to show everybody around me that I could overcome it all.

I started my second year of undergrad by enrolling in more classes than I had before and starting a new job. I went full-force back into the real world, feeling like I needed to make up for lost time. I didn’t want to keep feeling behind compared to my peers. Without realizing it, however, I was putting pressure on myself to be some sort of inspiration. I wanted to prove to myself that I could live the life I had envisioned, regardless of Crohn’s. For the first few weeks back at school, I was energized. Then, the workload I had set for myself became difficult to manage. I found myself coming back to the room I was renting with fatigue that I couldn’t just sleep off. Sometimes, my brain felt so foggy that I struggled to concentrate on my homework. I noticed I felt especially tired the day after my injection every two weeks. There were days when I would lie in bed and ruminate about everything I had gone through. Even though I was back in school, I had a job, and I could spend time with friends again, life still didn’t feel normal. I had a hard time completing tasks, staying motivated, and as the school year went on, my grades started to slip. I felt embarrassed that I was still having a hard time getting back on track. I still felt like there was a dark cloud looming over me most days, despite the fact that on paper, my physical conditions were under control. I hadn’t expected that even after the worst of it had passed, the trauma would still be there, and I would still grieve my old self before Crohn’s. While my doctors had equipped me with the treatments needed to manage my physical ailments, what l wasn’t prepared for was the effect being chronically ill would have on my mental health and well-being.

It took therapy, trial and error, attending peer support meetings, and time for me to get to a point where I recognized that it was necessary for me to scale back on how many units I was taking each quarter, and that it was okay to let others know I was struggling mentally and ask for help. The latter is still something I find challenging at times, but I’ve made progress and continue to work on it!

I’m not immune to bad days or weeks, but overall, I’ve managed to reach a point where I don’t always feel that shadow of sadness I did for a long time. Although the past few years may not have looked like what I expected growing up, I still managed to finish my degree in two different majors, not just within four years, but a quarter early! My first- or second-year student self would be shocked and perhaps not even believe it. My graduation ceremony was just a few weeks ago, and it prompted me to reflect on my journey of being diagnosed with Crohn’s as a young adult in college. 

My undergraduate years were full of life-changing experiences with lots of challenges. But I’m lucky that those years still gave me good memories to look back on and friendships that I anticipate will last for many years to come.

Over the past few years, I’ve grown more comfortable sharing my diagnosis and experiences with others. Having Crohn’s has made me more appreciative of the good times in life because I know good health and tomorrow are not always guaranteed. I’m also lucky to have found a community of people who understand the roller coaster that is living with IBD/a chronic illness. I hope that any other person going through something similar who may be reading this knows that they are not alone.

My progress hasn’t always been linear, but ultimately, I find myself at a place where I accept what life has thrown at me and where I recognize that I can and will be able to navigate life’s future hurdles. I surrender to the fact that I won’t always be able to control what comes next, but I know that difficult times will pass because they have before. I might not always have the answer to what the future has in store for me, but I know I’m proud of how far I’ve come and where I am today.

IBD: I Battle Daily

by Beamlak Alebel (Addis Ababa, Ethiopia)

A spray-painted yellow smiley face and white text that reads “stay safe” on the cement.

Living with inflammatory bowel disease (IBD) has taught me an unforgettable truth, that is the battle I face every single day. It is not a one time event or temporary struggle, it is an ongoing challenge that affects every part of who I am. It is not just physical, it is emotional, mental and spiritual. Every decision I make has the power either to support my healing or challenge it.

From my personal journey, I have learned something I believe is absolutely essential for a person living with IBD: understanding our condition is crucial. The more we know about IBD – the symptoms, the triggers, the treatment options – the better prepared we are to manage it with strength and confidence. 

But I have also come to realize another powerful truth: what works for me might not work for someone else. Each of our bodies is beautifully unique, and that is why it is so important to slow down, reflect, and truly listen to your body.

IBD is not just about following a set of rules someone else wrote, it is about discovering and honoring your own rhythm. 

I once heard my lecturer say, “I ALWAYS STAY ON MY SAFE SIDE.” That one sentence echoes in my mind on tough days. For those of us with IBD, our safe side is not just a place, it is a mindset. It is the knowledge we have gathered, the awareness we have cultivated and developed about our own bodies. Staying on our safe side means respecting our limits and standing strong in what we know helps us.

Let this journey inspire others to do the same. Let it be a reminder that even in the face of invisible battles, we have the strength to rise. Let it encourage every IBD warrior out there to listen closely to their bodies and to honor their unique paths with pride and resilience.

We fight daily not just with medication, but with courage, care, and community.

Image from Unsplash.

One Condition, Two Worlds, Shared Strength: Cross-continent experiences of living with IBD

by Beamlak Alebel & Kaitlyn Niznik

Kaitlyn’s experiences in the United States:

Living with microscopic colitis in the U.S. comes with its own challenges:

  • Months-long waits between doctor’s appointments

  • Expensive medications and treatments, especially without strong insurance

  • Delayed diagnosis despite advanced healthcare systems

  • Difficulty finding foods that align with dietary needs and aren’t overly processed

  • Being dismissed by others who don't understand the condition

  • A painful impact on social life and emotional well-being

Beamlak’s experiences in Ethiopia:

In Ethiopia, living with IBD means facing different (but just as heavy) burdens:

  • Widespread misconceptions: many believe it’s just stomach pain from bad diet

  • Medications are not only costly—they’re rarely available

  • IBD is seen as a disability, making it hard to find work

  • Employers are hesitant to hire people with chronic illness

  • Speaking openly often leads to judgment or silent gossip

  • There’s little public awareness, and support is nearly nonexistent

  • Surgery and pain are not just physical but emotional struggles too

  • Isolation is deep, and the future feels uncertain

  • Chronic illness carries stigma, creating silence and shame

Despite our different realities, our pain, fears, and desire to be understood are the same.

IBD knows no borders.

And neither does our strength.

We’re raising our voices—because IBD is real, painful, and deserves global attention.

By sharing our stories, we break the silence.

By standing together, we make IBD visible.

By speaking out, we show that shame fades when we are heard.

Let’s keep going. For ourselves. For each other. For every IBD warrior around the world.

Through

by Michelle Garber (California, U.S.A.)

World IBD Day is May 19th, and this year’s theme is “Breaking Taboos, Talking About It.” Here are 2025 CCYAN Fellow Michelle’s thoughts on stigma, shame, and talking about IBD!

Since being diagnosed with Ulcerative Pancolitis almost four years ago, I have been battling the shame that surrounds my symptoms. I often look back at who I was before my diagnosis—not only grieving that version of myself but also feeling ashamed that I can never fully be her again. Before IBD, I was fiercely independent, reliable, spontaneous, perfectionistic, energetic, athletic, social, focused, happy—and, most importantly, healthy. To put it into perspective: I was a straight-A student at a top magnet school in my district with a 4.44 GPA. I was simultaneously taking college classes, volunteering, traveling, going out with friends, exercising, and serving as the Secretary of my high school’s dance production team. Even during my first year of university—despite COVID-19 restrictions—I took 33 credits, earned leadership positions, made the Dean’s List, got straight A’s, moved into my own apartment, worked out consistently, and started two social work internships. 

Then, everything changed. After my diagnosis, my life felt like it had been turned upside down—and in many ways, it had. For a couple of years, I had to move back in with my parents because I could no longer care for myself. There were days that I couldn’t brush my own hair or stand long enough to cook a meal or wash my face. If I needed to go to the hospital, I couldn’t even get myself there. I was fully dependent on my family when my IBD was active. That dependency alone filled me with shame. How could a nineteen-year-old not brush her own hair? How could I be so weak? While I managed to continue online school, I had to request disability accommodations from my university. I went from being someone who never asked for help to someone who needed it in nearly every part of her life. I no longer felt like myself. The woman I once was had seemingly vanished, and in her place was someone I didn’t recognize—someone who carried a constant, heavy shame. 

Even now, despite being in remission for about two years, that shame hasn’t disappeared. It creeps in every time I’m too fatigued to answer a text or take a phone call—or worse, when I have to cancel plans. In those moments, I don’t just feel like a bad friend, I feel weak. I feel mentally, physically, and emotionally defeated. I question how someone like me, who seemed to once "do it all," can’t even hold a simple conversation anymore. That shame resurfaces every time I walk into my gastroenterologist’s office or sit in the infusion center waiting room. I think to myself, "Why am I here? I am so young, and yet I am sick. I must just be weak." Even when I pick up a stool collection kit at the lab, I look around, paranoid and embarrassed that someone might know what’s in that big, brown paper bag. I also feel ashamed of what I have to do with that kit once I get home. Especially on the days that I sleep late into the afternoon or feel too exhausted to shower, that shame becomes deafening. I can’t even manage basic self-care, and that makes me feel pathetic and exposed

Unfortunately, I used to feel as though this shame only deepened when I tried to speak up about what I was going through. On a romantic level, I used to be extremely cautious about sharing my IBD with potential partners. This is because I didn’t want to feel embarrassed, and I certainly didn’t want to be rejected because of it. My first partner after my diagnosis knew all about my IBD. We joked about bathroom "duties" constantly—it was part of our daily rhythm. Beneath the humor, though, I knew that he wanted someone different: someone who could be spontaneous, who could have endless energy, who could cook large meals, who could host frequent gatherings, who could clean, who could work out with him, etc. That just wasn’t me anymore. I also knew that he didn’t want to be around if I ever needed to take Prednisone again since I had explained its emotional toll and side effects. Moreover, I knew that he would "never touch" me if I ever had to get an ostomy. So, I tried to be who he wanted—to become the woman I was before IBD—and for a while, I pulled it off. Over time, though, that relationship made me feel unaccepted—for who I was in that moment and for who I might become. It made me feel ashamed to be me—the real me. It intensified the shame I already carried about my illness.

Since then, dating has been rocky. I’ve met a few people who've responded with deep empathy and genuine interest, and for that, I am grateful. I’ve also encountered individuals who shut down any conversation about IBD out of their own discomfort, who incessantly question my fertility or the "quality" of my genes, or who firmly believe that "tooting" in private or using the word "poo" in a sentence would be impolite and inappropriate. For someone who loves deeply and craves a meaningful romantic connection, those reactions cut deep. They make me question and feel ashamed of the kind of partner I am—or could ever be. On a platonic level, things haven’t been easier. When friends or family joke about me "sleeping all day," "always being at home," "always needing the bathroom," "being forgetful," "not being fun," "eating boring foods," or about how my brother "takes better care" of my dog, shame crashes over me like a wave. I genuinely begin to drown in it. It’s one thing to feel shame for not meeting your own expectations—the ones you set when you were healthy. It’s another to feel shame when romantic partners judge you for something you didn’t even choose and cannot control. However, it’s something entirely different, and perhaps even more painful, to feel that shame reinforced by the people you love and value the most. When they unknowingly echo the same critical thoughts that I already battle every day, it doesn’t just hurt—it reinforces my shame and makes me feel weak and unworthy. 

This compoundedness and deeply personal nature of this criticism take my shame and embarrassment to an entirely different level. The intensity of shame I’ve felt in these moments mirrors the shame I’ve carried throughout my journey with active IBD symptoms. It mirrors: 

The shame I felt needing my loved ones to brush my hair; 

The shame I felt crying, begging, and pleading with doctors for answers and relief;

The shame I felt discussing my symptoms with countless medical professionals;

The shame I felt from the burn marks and scars left behind by overusing a heating pad;

The shame I felt experiencing fecal incontinence; 

The shame I felt wearing diapers for months; 

The shame I felt needing to carry baby wipes, toilet paper, and a change of clothes;

The shame I felt when I could no longer clean myself without help; 

The shame I felt asking my gastroenterologist to remove my colon; 

The shame I felt when I began to question if life was even worth living;

The shame I felt being bedridden, needing a wheelchair just to get fresh air;

The shame I felt requesting accommodations from my university; 

The shame I felt when a doctor asked me why I waited so long to seek help. 

Still, I continue to grieve the version of myself I once was, and I wrestle with the shame of not being able to live up to that image again. Feeling stuck in your own body when your mind wants to do so much more is an agonizing experience. I acknowledge that fully. Yet—despite my doubts—those feelings of shame began to fade away as my symptoms have lessened and as I’ve found my voice within the IBD community. I've recently been able to feel pride when comparing the person I once was to the person I am today. No, I may never again be the energetic, healthy "yes woman" I once was. Nevertheless, I wouldn’t have the resilience, empathy, and sense of purpose I now carry if not for IBD. Fighting for your life, navigating a new reality, and battling stigma while the world moves on without you teaches you something profound: you are capable of surviving the unimaginable. 

With this new revelation and mindset, I've come to see how my feelings of shame and beliefs of being weak/perceived as weak are rooted in fallacy because: 

To cry in front of doctors and explain your symptoms is not shameful—that's strength.

To be vulnerable and advocate for yourself is not shameful—that's courage.

To decline a call, cancel plans, say "no," and set boundaries is not shameful—that's self-respect.

To rest rather than push through the pain is not shameful—that's self-love.

To wear diapers and pack supplies to manage your day is not shameful—that's determination.

To request or actually go through a life-altering surgery is not shameful—that's bravery.

To need and/or ask for help is not shameful—that's survival

To live in a body that is constantly fighting against you is not shameful—that's perseverance.

To choose life every day, despite IBD's messiness and pain, is not shameful—that's resilience. 

Furthermore, I believe with all my heart that talking openly about IBD—the good, the bad, and the ugly—is one of the greatest testaments of one's strength. Whether it's with friends, partners, family, co-workers, medical providers, or strangers, it takes immense courage to be that vulnerable. This is because, in all honesty, there is risk involved. As human beings, our minds can sometimes jump to the worst possible outcomes. When it comes to talking about IBD, there's the risk of being judged, pitied, and misunderstood. There's the risk of "becoming" your diagnosis and of losing relationships or job opportunities due to stigma. These fears are real and valid, and they’re exactly why many IBD patients tread lightly when sharing their stories. As a result, though, we often overlook the best possible outcomes. From experience, I know that talking about your IBD can: help you feel more at home in your own body; help you feel accepted for who you truly are rather than who people want you to be; help you find community; help shine a light on the genuine/empathetic people in your life; help create space in your mind for something more than just survival; help break the stigma; and help pave the way for earlier diagnoses, better treatments, and stronger support systems. Sharing your story doesn’t make you less—it makes you more. Sharing your story makes you more human, more whole, and more you than you had ever thought possible. 

Taking all of this into account, I’ve come to recognize how powerful it can be to talk about IBD and share your story. If the worst that can happen is being judged, excluded, misunderstood, or left, then maybe talking about your IBD is a blessing in disguise. I know that speaking openly about my IBD has saved me from dedicating my energy and love to people who didn’t deserve it. If the best that can happen is finding your people, becoming more comfortable with your diagnosis and yourself, getting care faster, and helping to break the stigma, then sharing your story might actually be a superpower. We, as IBD patients, are in a unique position to educate and advocate—not because it’s our responsibility, but because our lived experiences often speak louder than medical textbooks ever could. I wish we lived in a world where everyone understood IBD, where institutions offered protection, and where systems were built to accommodate us. The truth is, though, most people just don’t know where to start. They rely on what they read online or hear in passing. It’s easy to see how misconceptions and stigma grow. If I read online that remission meant "no symptoms and a healthy colon," I probably also wouldn’t have much empathy for someone in remission who still canceled plans or needed extra rest. As someone in remission who is sharing her story, though, I can tell you one thing: that version of the story isn’t quite right. Nothing about IBD is so black-and-white. Everyone’s experience is different, which is why personal storytelling matters so much. Doctors, loved ones, and even other patients learn from us as IBD patients. So many vital conversations—about non-textbook flare symptoms, about “safe foods,” about unspoken medication side effects, and about what remission really looks like—don’t come from medical journals; they come from people with IBD who tell the truth about what it’s actually like. Without these stories, diagnosis and treatment can be delayed, and support systems stay broken. It’s not our job to fix the system, but by speaking up, we might just make it easier for those who come after us. We might even make it easier for ourselves in the future. 

For a disease that has made me feel powerless more times than I can count, finding power with or over my diagnosis has been invaluable. Talking about IBD has helped me reclaim my own narrative. People can still judge me, but at least they’re judging something real. If someone can’t handle a story of resilience, that’s on them. No journey of survival is without its dark moments. Most movements worth remembering were forged in hardship. 

That said, I don’t want to pretend it’s easy. Even now, I still struggle to talk about my IBD. I just recently began experiencing symptoms of a flare, but I only told my doctor and loved ones after a delay. This was not out of embarrassment, but out of fear—the fear of returning to that time when I felt that I had lost all independence, the fear of being blamed, and the fear of blaming myself. There’s a voice in the back of my mind that whispers, "You should’ve taken better care of yourself. You should've been stronger." And although I know that’s not true, it still stings.

Even with that fear, though, I eventually reached out because I’ve learned what happens when I don’t. I know now that silence doesn’t save me. Hiding doesn’t protect me. Every time I have tried to ignore a symptom or push through for someone else’s comfort, I’ve paid for it tenfold. I've realized that delaying diagnosis and treatment is, quite frankly, not worth anything. So, I’ve started doing the hard thing: I've started telling the truth. I’d rather speak up than wait until things become unmanageable because the truth is, IBD is messy. It’s not just a bathroom disease. It’s not just about inflammation or test results. It’s about what it does to your relationships, your identity, and your sense of safety in your own skin. It’s about mourning the life you thought you would have, and then figuring out how to build a new one—without pretending that the old one didn’t matter. It’s also about power—quiet power. This is the kind of power you reclaim when you speak up, when you stop hiding, and when you say, "Here’s what I’m going through," even if your voice shakes. 

I know what it’s like to walk into a doctor’s office, share your story, and be dismissed. I know what it’s like to be lonely in a room full of people who love you. I know how scary it can be to share what you're going through. At the same time, I also know how healing it can be. Talking about your IBD—when you’re ready—can give you strength with the diagnosis and over the stigma. That kind of power is slow and sacred. It doesn’t always feel good, but it builds something stronger than "perfection" and "control." It builds truth. When I tell my story, I don’t just feel more seen. I also make space for other people to show up with their stories. Sometimes, your courage can be the reason someone else finds theirs and feels less ashamed. The more we speak, the less shame survives. The more we share the parts of IBD that don’t have tidy endings, the more human this disease becomes rather than being a punchline of a joke or a pity project. There are days that I still feel afraid—afraid of being judged, misunderstood, and left behind. Even so, I’m more afraid of going through this alone. If my story can be a hand reaching out to someone else in the dark, then I’ll keep telling it—again and again. At the end of the day, I truly believe that the only way out is through, and for me, the "through" begins with sharing my story.

Flare-up: A Downward Spiral

by Akhil Shridhar (Bengaluru, India)

A black and white image of a spiral staircase (view from above).

It all begins with a flare-up. For most of us, the diagnosis comes only after enduring symptoms for days or months, dismissed as a stomach bug. But when the discomfort escalates into a significant disruption, we hear the term “flare-up” for the first time. The symptoms build like a chain reaction, growing worse until urgent medications—usually steroids or antibiotics—are prescribed for relief.

Difficulty with Food

Almost every food item can trigger nausea or an urgent trip to the restroom, making nutrition a frustrating challenge. While some believe short-term food restrictions might ease inflammation, prolonged deprivation causes more harm. In countries like India, navigating diverse dietary recommendations complicates matters. As newly diagnosed individuals we often seek advice in support groups, hoping for recipes or meal plans that won’t worsen symptoms. But in most households, skipping meals isn’t acceptable. Our parents insist on “good food,” unaware that their concern often fuels the next domino.

The Washroom Runs

Initially, the frequent restroom trips are an inconvenience—but soon, they dictate life. The unpredictability makes outings stressful, and hesitation around food becomes constant. Exhaustion follows, leaving us dehydrated, fatigued, and mentally drained. The cycle feeds itself: eating triggers symptoms, symptoms disrupt daily activities, and fatigue makes even basic tasks overwhelming.

The Mental Toll

Beyond the physical struggle, IBD takes an emotional toll. The anxiety of unpredictability, the frustration of adapting to a condition that doesn’t follow rules, and the isolation of feeling misunderstood weigh heavily. Conversations become filtered—friends may not fully grasp the challenges, and outings are haunted by the fear of urgently needing a restroom. 

Sleep Struggles

IBD doesn’t stop at meals—it disrupts rest too. Pain, restroom trips, and anxiety make sleep elusive, worsening inflammation and fatigue. Poor rest perpetuates the cycle, making daily recovery harder. Many of us try strict bedtime routines, meal adjustments, or sleep aids to reclaim rest. While perfect sleep remains rare, small efforts help ensure the limited hours of sleep offer some recovery.

Finding Balance

What I have realised after a few misadventures is that the best way to get out of this spiral is to consult your medical team and get the required medications right away. The damage that prolonged inflammation has is quite severe and takes months if not years to reverse, sometimes is unfortunately irreversible, therefore it is not worth the risk of ignoring it.

IBD is unpredictable and exhausting, but it doesn’t define life. Over time, we find dietary adjustments, support systems, and coping mechanisms to regain control. Gradually, these adjustments help restore control—accepting the hard days, seeking support, and celebrating small victories. While flare-ups will always come and go, so does recovery. Life continues, not perfectly, but uniquely. And within that cycle, resilience proves stronger than the condition itself.

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Internalized stigma in IBD, mental health, and quality of life: A study review

by Aiswarya Asokan (South India)

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Living with IBD comes with a lot of constraints that no one prepares you for. Every time one goes through a major life transition like starting college, joining work, or getting into a relationship, adapting to the changes is never easy. It’s often difficult to fit in due to our IBD, which in turn puts us under a lot of stress and anxiety. Research indicates that bowel-related issues are a widespread cultural taboo and historically, IBD has been seen as “psychosomatic,” further stigmatizing the condition.

To learn more about this, I read a paper titled “The mediating role of psychological inflexibility on internalised stigma and patient outcomes in a sample of adults with inflammatory bowel disease.” This study was conducted to examine the relationship between ‘psychological inflexibility’ (when someone struggles to adapt to challenges, avoiding emotions or feels stuck) and ‘internalized stigma’ (when individuals adopt negative societal beliefs or shame as their own, and devalue their identity) on health outcomes. The authors looked at outcomes like mental distress (depression, anxiety, stress), health related quality of life, self-efficacy, self-concealment (hiding personal information that is distressing or negative from others), beliefs about emotions, and fatigue (physical and mental) in adults with IBD using an online survey of 382 participants.

This study suggested that:  

  • Adults with IBD who had higher rates of psychological inflexibility also had higher rates of internalized stigma, negative beliefs about their emotions, self-concealment, mental distress, fatigue, and impaired quality of life. 

  • Psychological inflexibility was inversely related to committed action, stigma resistance, and IBD self-efficacy.  

  • Adults with IBD who had higher rates of internalized stigma also showed higher rates of mental distress, self concealment, negative beliefs about their emotions, fatigue, and poor health-related quality of  life. 

  • Internalized stigma was inversely correlated to stigma resistance, IBD related self-efficacy, and committed action.  

  • Participant’s age and educational level showed an inverse correlation with their psychological inflexibility. Their IBD severity (in the past 3 months), the presence of an ostomy, and their COVID-19 self-isolation status were positively correlated. 

  • Internalized stigma was higher for individuals with an ostomy, those currently taking steroids, who had experienced severe IBD in the past 3 months, and who were more self-isolated, whereas educational level was inversely correlated.  

Other interesting insights from this study:  

  • Individuals who face discrimination regarding their IBD, who are less able to employ ‘flexible’ responses may spend more energy avoiding stigmatizing experiences, making it harder for them to engage in meaningful activities.  

  • New research indicates that general familiarity with IBD can help reduce public stigma; highlighting the importance of IBD awareness campaigns to increase public understanding of IBD, thereby reducing stigma.  

  • These study findings suggest that lower levels of internalized stigma is associated with increased psychological flexibility and better patient outcomes. Modalities of therapy like ‘Acceptance and Commitment Therapy’ (ACT) – which aim to increase psychological flexibility by changing individuals’ relationship with their thoughts, feelings and behaviors – may be a helpful intervention.  

Personally, years of living with IBD have enabled me to build a circle of people where I can take my armor off. But still, going through repeated flares, body image issues, breaks from education, social isolation, and being under steroids takes a toll on my mental health and quality of living. Often the medical team's support stops once your blood counts are under control, leaving us with the responsibility of picking up ourselves and moving on with the new normal. 

Citation:

Reynolds DP, Chalder T, Henderson C. The mediating role of psychological inflexibility on internalised stigma and patient outcomes in a sample of adults with inflammatory bowel disease. J Crohns Colitis. 2025 Apr 1:. doi: 10.1093/ecco-jcc/jjaf055. Epub ahead of print. https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/40168103/

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Life with Crohn’s – A Pantoum

by Alexis Gomez (California, U.S.A.)

A graphic of a fern on a white background. Some of its’ leaves are blowing away in the wind. Below it is a dark triangle of dirt and roots, also blowing away.

This is your life now.

The burning and belly aches

instigated by none other than Crohn’s,

your forever counterpart.

The burning and belly aches,

the appointments, calls, meds, side effects.

Your forever counterparts are

memories of you in both sickness and health.

The appointments, calls, meds, side effects

force you to advocate for yourself like never before.

Memories of you in both sickness and health

remind you how quickly life can change.

You’re forced to advocate for yourself like never before but

it makes you stronger.

You’re reminded how quickly life can change,

how the world doesn’t pause when you need it to.

It makes you stronger–

the moments of grief and relief.

The world doesn’t pause when you need it to, but

you can savor times of joy and give yourself grace.

The moments of grief and relief

are ever-present with IBD.

You can savor times of joy and give yourself grace.

You deserve it because

this is your life now.

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What It’s Like Working Through Phobias: Creating A Comfort Toolkit

by Kaitlyn Niznik (New York, U.S.A.)

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I can't remember a time when I didn't have a blood/needle/medical phobia.  I would regularly faint at the doctor's office and even talking about blood was enough to make me pass out in high school.  It wasn't a problem until I developed chronic stomach issues and was diagnosed with microscopic colitis.  All of the sudden, I was pushed headfirst into a world of doctors' appointments and countless medical tests.  It's hard enough to find answers from doctors, but fear can make you ignore your problems, making things worse.  I still struggle with this phobia today, but with the help of a therapist, I’m working through my issues.  Please seek the help of a trained professional to face your phobias in the safest way possible.  Here are several strategies I'm using to make progress facing my fears.  

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Desensitization Training/ Exposure Therapy

Desensitization and exposure therapy can start with looking at images of videos of your phobia, eventually progressing to more realistic scenarios. For instance, someone with a blood phobia might progress from viewing images to medical shows and eventually going to blood drives.  The overall goal might be to get bloodwork done, but you have to build up exposure over time to get more comfortable with your fears.  

I've been unknowingly trying to do this my whole life.  As a kid, I would reread veterinary books to expose myself to a little literary medical gore.  I would deem it a success if I didn't get woozy.  Today, medical imagery has become an inherent part of my artistic practice.  I find exposure more palatable if I attempt to explore images and procedures from a place of curiosity rather than fear.  If I'm looking at veins, I try to ask myself what colors I see under the skin.  I've progressed to the point where I can look at surgical photos of arteries and attempt to draw them without getting queasy.  It's easier for me to separate myself from a picture than a procedure happening to me, so that's where my exposure therapy has started.  

Working with a therapist, I did a deep dive on my phobias and my hierarchy of fears.  Instead of just seeing all situations surrounding blood or needles as being equally terrifying, I was able to sort them into a list of situations with varying intensity.  While younger me thought a finger prick was the worst situation possible, I now list it much lower on my list, opting to put IVs in a higher position.  It's all a matter of perspective.  By making a fear hierarchy, I was able to tackle lower intensity situations and gain confidence and resilience before braving my top fears. 

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Keeping A Sense Of Control 

When I was little, my family had to trick me to get me in the doctor's office.  In adulthood, I tried to mimic this strategy by being spontaneous. Instead of scheduling a flu shot and worrying about it for weeks in advance, I'd wake up and decide to go that morning.  This strategy somewhat lessened my stress, but it also felt too hurried. I never had a sense of control, just urgency to get it done and over with.  It didn't leave me in a good headspace and I still found myself fretting over the possibility of getting a shot for weeks ahead of time. 

Now, I'm better prepared.  With the help of my therapist and journaling, I've made lists of what is within my control during doctors’ appointments.  I keep a “comfort bag" ready and always bring it with me to appointments.  If I need blood work, I pack my own snacks for afterwards and plan to reward myself with a sweet treat from a nearby cafe.  I also pick out my "victim” arm ahead of time based on which arm feels stronger than day.  

When it's my turn for bloodwork, I tell my nurse right away that I'm terrified and I'm a faint-risk.  I also ask for the reclining chair when possible.  It's not so upright that I'll get dizzy and slump over, but through experience, I've also found that fully lying down feels more vulnerable and heightens my fear.  A reclining chair puts me in a better headspace, so it is important that I advocate for my preferences.  Doing small things consistently and giving yourself small choices in your healthcare can help you feel more in control and you'll know exactly what to expect.   

A drawing of a tote bag and it’s contents on a light purple background. The bag is labeled “My Comfort Bag,” and next to it are a pair of headphones, a pack of tissues, a granola bar, essential oils, a worry stone, phone, and a tennis ball.

Pack A Comfort Bag, Activate Your Senses

In an effort to ground myself, I try to pack things in my bag that activate my 5 senses of sight, sound, smell, taste, and touch.  I always have these items in a bag and ready to go.  Consistency is key, so I bring them with me to all of my medical appointments.  When I’m in the waiting room, I grab my headphones and put on some music.  I also pack sensory items that are calming like fidget toys to distract myself with.  If I’m getting blood drawn, I have a tennis ball handy that I can grip, tissues for when I cry, and a snack for when it’s all over.  This kit can be any size and it should be personal to you.  Here’s a list of what I keep in my bag: 

  • Snacks

  • Water

  • Tissues

  • Tennis ball (to grip)

  • Lavender essential oil

  • Hand warmer

  • Electrolytes packet 

  • Fidget toy or comfort object (worry stone)

  • Headphones for calming music or ASMR 

An image of a ‘box breathing’ exercise on a light purple background. Arrows guide you around the sides of the square, which are labeled: "exhale, hold, inhale, hold.”

Don't Just Wing It, Strategize 

Plan out your day ahead of time.  Plan to have downtime afterwards to chill, recover, and reward yourself.  I like to have a friend or family member drive me to and from appointments just in case I feel dizzy afterwards.  

Pressure therapies or tense & release exercises have also been proven to help calm the body.  Box breathing is another exercise to keep in your toolkit.  It can stop you from hyperventilating and keep you calm.  Make sure to try these techniques out BEFORE an appointment or exposure to your phobia.  Practice makes perfect and not every therapy works for every person.  Find what fits you and make a plan to tackle your phobias.

God of Small Things, Arundhati & THE LOVE EQUATION - A Crohn’s View

by Rifa Tusnia Mona (Dhaka, Bangladesh)

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Stigmas Have Power! You might wonder why I say this as an IBD advocate. After all, stigmas are often baseless and untrue. But when they come at you from all directions—constantly, persistently—they start to wear you down. That’s when the real distraction, aka destruction, begins.

Imagine this:

One morning, you wake up feeling like something is coiling and twisting inside your stomach. You can’t eat. Or if you do, your body refuses to digest. Nausea takes over. You vomit again and again. The cramps hit without warning, stabbing, vanishing, then returning like waves from a storm. You feel trapped in a body that’s turning against you.

At first, people think it’s temporary—just a bug, maybe food poisoning. But then, something changes. The concern fades, and in its place, they start labeling you.

One morning, your mother decides to take you to church. If you’re Muslim, maybe it’s a hujur or a Sufi healer. Neighbors drop by. They don’t bring comfort; they bring unsolicited advice. "Have you tried this doctor?" "You should pray more."

Later, one morning, you find yourself lying in a hospital bed. A nurse enters and says, “Ask God for forgiveness.”

It hits differently. You’re not just battling a disease anymore—you’re battling judgment.

That’s the thing about stigmas: they’re powerful because they echo from everywhere. Different mouths, same message. And it always seems to come when you’re at your weakest.

But the hardest part?

When it comes from the people you love—your friends, your family—the ones who’ve always stood by you. That’s when the real confusion begins. You think, They care about me. They’ve never meant me harm. So maybe… maybe they’re right?

And just like that, you start to question yourself—not your illness, but your worth.

It took me a long time to realize that human minds are incredibly complex. I used to carry the weight of every cruel word, every dismissive act, thinking I must’ve done something to deserve it. But over time, I began to understand: most of the time, it’s not about me.

People don’t always act from a place of clarity or kindness. Sometimes, they hurt others to soothe an old scar within themselves. Sometimes, they mirror the pain they once suffered. And sometimes, they hurt simply because they don’t know how not to.

That’s when it hit me—pain is transferable.

It doesn’t just live in one person; it moves, it multiplies, it morphs into behaviors, into beliefs, into judgment. And many of those who hurt us are, in fact, carrying unresolved pain of their own. 

“The God of Small Things” by Arundhati Roy feels like a masterpiece to me—layered, lyrical, and hauntingly beautiful. But if I had to pick one part that truly stayed with me, it would be the part about what Roy calls ‘The Love Laws’—or, as I like to think of it, the unspoken equation of love.

“That it really began in the days when the Love Laws were made. The Laws that lay down who should be loved, and how, And how much.”

-Page 33, Chapter 1, Paradise Pickles and Preserves, The God of Small Things

According to this idea, the amount of love we receive can sometimes feel predetermined—set by invisible rules we never agreed to. From Arundhati Roy’s words, I understood that love is often measured through two things: care and concern. These are the true units that define the depth of a relationship.

For love to feel genuine and meaningful, both must be present—together. When only one shows up, or when they're offered inconsistently, the relationship starts to feel imbalanced. It turns into something less whole, something we try to justify as "complicated" or label as, “Please, try to understand.” But deep down, we know—it’s a compromised connection.

“After Ammu died (after the last time she came back to Ayemenem, swollen with cortisone and a rattle in her chest that sounded like a faraway man shouting), Rahel drifted. From school to school. She spent her holidays in Ayemenem, largely ignored by Chacko and Mammachi (grown soft with sorrow, slumped in their bereavement like a pair of drunks in a toddy bar) and largely ignoring Baby Kochamma. In matters related to the raising of Rahel, Chacko and Mammachi tried, but couldn’t. They provided the care (food, clothes, fees), but withdrew the concern.”

-Page 15, Chapter 1, Paradise Pickles and Preserves, The God of Small Things.

There was a time when I was hospitalized for over a month. My father had a full-time job, and my mother had to juggle between caring for me and my younger sister. With both of them stretched thin, I reached out to every friend and relative I knew, hoping someone could step in as a caregiver. But no one came forward.

I was already battling an undiagnosed illness, and on top of that, navigating hospital departments alone, collecting test results while being so physically unwell—it felt like walking through fire. In that moment, a thought struck me hard: “After living over two decades, have I still not understood the love equation?”

Living with a chronic condition like Crohn’s has, in a strange way, been like being handed a special lens. I began to see certain relationships for what they truly were—fragile, one-sided, and built on illusions. That clarity gave me the strength to say “No” and walk away from connections that no longer served me.

It might sound harsh, but when your body is already carrying so much pain, the weight of empty relationships and unmet expectations becomes unbearable. Letting go became a form of relief, a way to breathe again. I’ve come to believe that sometimes, releasing old bonds opens up space for new, more meaningful ones. And life, quietly but surely, moves forward.

In a world where being "different" is often taboo, genuine relationships—the ones rooted in care and understanding—can feel like a warm shield. They make all the difference.

These are just my reflections, and as a reader, you’re welcome to hold your own. But thank you for making it this far—I appreciate your presence here, and I hope to meet you again in my next write-up.

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Pelvic Health and IBD: An Infographic

by Lexi Hanson (Missouri, U.S.A.)

Black text on a light blue background reads “The Relationship between Pelvic Health and IBD.” There are graphics of a pelvis and stomach.

Infographic text reads: One in three women will experience a pelvic floor disorder in her lifetime. One in four women (older than 20) experiences pelvic floor symptoms.

Inflammation -- Individuals with IBD often experience pelvic floor dysfunction, which can manifest as pelvic pain, urinary incontinence, or constipation. The inflammation and irritation associated with IBD can lead to muscle tightness and dysfunction in the pelvic floor area.

Bladder Function — Many patients with IBD report urinary symptoms, such as urgency and frequency, due to the close proximity of the intestines and bladder. Inflammation in the bowel can affect bladder function, leading to discomfort and urgency.

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Surgery Implications — Surgical interventions for IBD, such as colectomy, can affect pelvic health. These surgeries can lead to changes in bowel habits and may result in complications like pelvic floor disorders, which can further impact quality of life and pelvic health.

Stress of Managing IBD — The stress and anxiety associated with managing a chronic condition like IBD can lead to muscle tension in the pelvic area. Psychological factors may also exacerbate symptoms of pelvic floor dysfunction, as stress can influence bowel and bladder habits.

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My Experiences — I recently visited Mayo Clinic in Rochester to participate in their 2 week intensive pelvic floor therapy program, as I am part of the 25% of women who has experienced pelvic floor symptoms! My time at Mayo left me with hope, homework, and healing! Some tangible tips I can share are to try and use the bathroom whenever you feel the urge or create a routine of using the bathroom at mealtimes, invest in a squatty potty to engage in the correct biomechanics, and practice getting in touch with your body to hopefully reduce the stress going to your pelvic floor (deep breathing and vagus nerve exercises are great places to start!)

Info from: https://www.uchicagomedicine.org/conditions-services/obgyn/urogynecology/pelvic-floor-disorders.

I am more than what you see: Living with IBD body changes

by Beamlak Alebel (Addis Ababa, Ethiopia)

A person in a dark blue shirt holds a rectangular mirror over their face. The bright blue sky with clouds is reflected in the mirror.

Living with inflammatory bowel disease, my body has changed in ways I didn't choose. People see my outward appearance and make assumptions. Often, they don't wait to hear your story, and they judge you based on your size or looks: no words, no chance. It hurts because words can't always express what we feel inside.

They don't see the battles I fight every single day. I’ve heard it all: 

"You are too skinny." 

"You don't look strong." 

"You must not eat enough."

But I know myself - I am strong. My journey is filled with courage, healing and hope. I don't have to be judged by my size, I am more than that. My size doesn't define my strength, my resilience does. 

I have faced many tough times, but people don't see me as a serious person because of my appearance. I have survived painful flare ups, countless hospital visits, difficult medication side effects, surgery, and emotional lows and that could have broken me.

And yet, I am still here: still standing, still fighting.

I may not have a body society views as "tough," but I carry strength in my spirit. 

I carry it in my story. 

Being judged by my body and appearance has been painful, but it has also taught me what really matters: my ability to rise again and again. 

I am not a slab of meat to be consumed or judged. Your power lies in what you overcome, not in the size of your frame or your appearance. We are more than our bodies, we are warriors.

No one knows what tomorrow holds, and what we have today is not guaranteed. Life changes, and bodies change, but our worth remains. Let’s learn to see beyond appearance, and appreciate our strength. We never know the silent battles someone is fighting – behind every look, there is an untold story.

Photo by Unsplash.

Michelle’s IBD “Burn Book”

by Michelle Garber (California, U.S.A.)

A Mean Girls-style graphic on a bright pink background reads “Burn Book (IBD version).” It has doodles scribbled over the text, including drawings of intestines and the poop emoji.

Inspired by Mean Girls and high school yearbooks, I created an “IBD Burn Book” to shed light on the invisibility of IBD and emphasize the importance of empathy when interacting with someone with IBD.

A yearbook-style photo collage of Michelle smiling and looking happy, with phrases like “don’t worry about me, how are you?” and “class superlative: biggest yes person.” In the background are the repeating words “smiling, outgoing, healthy, strong, energetic, reliable, lucky, blessed, positive, spontaneous, daughter, friend, sister, student, advocate, outspoken, happy.”

When you first open the Burn Book, you’ll see that my “Mask” has been crowned Prom Queen. The images on this page are from moments when I had my mask on—when I pretended to be “fine.” The background words reflect how others perceive me more positively when I wear this mask, which is why it was elected Prom Queen.

A yearbook-style photo collage of Michelle looking tired in various medical settings (the hospital, getting infusions) with phrases like “don’t miss out or flake,” “nobody will accept you” and “patient presents with anxiety.” In the background are the repeating words “gross, liar, pity, ew, anxiety, hypocondriac, shame, lazy, your fault, too young, judgement, skinny, fat, weak.”

The next page is a Student Feature of my Inner Thoughts. Here, I am without my mask. This contrast serves as a reminder that appearances can be deceiving—what you see on the outside isn’t always real; it might just be a mask.

Michelle’s ‘not hot’ list has a pink background with white squares. The following phrases are X’ed out in red pen: “I don’t want to touch you,” “so you’ve got bad genes?,” “i could never live like that,” “you’re too young to be sick,” “at least it’s not cancer,” “you look like a holocaust survivor,” “i have IBS too!,” “have you tried yoga?,” “gross,” “It’s all the junk food you’re eating,” “look on the bright side, you lose weight easily,'“ and “i guess this means we’ll have to adopt.”

Following that is a Not Hot List, which consists of a collection of phrases people should never say to someone with IBD. (Sadly, every one of these remarks has been said to me).

A pink poster labeled “wanted: empathy.” In each square, there is a different phrase: “I believe you,” “I’m here for you,” “I love you,” “you’re beautiful,” “how can I help?,'“ “how did your procedure go?,” “how do you feel?,” “I want to learn,” “can I come with?,” “call me any time,” “you’re always invited,” “what are your dietary restrictions?,” “your struggle is my struggle,” “it has bathroom access,” “I researched IBD,” and “good luck with your infusion!.” The phrases are emphasized with stars, hearts, and stickers that read “100%!” “yes!” and “A+.”

The final page of the Burn Book is a WANTED poster—for empathy. Instead of harmful comments, this page lists empathetic phrases one should say to someone with IBD. Essentially, it serves as the “Hot List” in Mean Girls or high school terminology.

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Invisible illnesses come with their own set of challenges—such as a widespread lack of awareness—but the focus here is how easily someone with IBD can hide their struggles. Smiling through the pain, pretending to feel well—it becomes second nature. I’m not the first person to wear a “mask” to feel accepted or to make others comfortable, and I certainly won’t be the last.

The reality, though, is that IBD is a constant battle. Even if you see me dancing with friends, traveling, or enjoying a big meal, I am still struggling. The takeaway? You never truly know what someone else is going through, so always choose kindness. More importantly, choose empathy. If you do know what someone is going through (specifically IBD in this case), be especially mindful of your words and actions. While you might assume your words and actions don’t affect us, remember—we’ve had a lot of practice hiding our pain.

From Here to There

by Alexis Gomez (California, U.S.A.)

A white circle spray-painted on the sidewalk, reads “you are here.” A pair of pointy black shoes stands in the circle.

I am here

but sometimes I want to be at the point

where my body is still like

the photo from 2007 where I am four

laying on the living room carpet

holding my infant brother who’s drooling

and I am smiling and

I am healthy and

I have never known a life unlike this.

I am here.

Not like those

under a setting spring sun

warming their skin

unburned,

unlike

        my insides

                     eyes

                      mouth

                        scalp

                     lungs

                legs

       heart

ego.

I will get there

when I can say thank you

to my body for fighting

(itself)

to keep me alive

everyday.

Timelines are unpredictable.

I know I will get there because

I think of the future

I think about being in it

                                              laughing

                                              singing

                                              dancing

                                              admiring

                                              feeling

                                              appreciating

living.

I am here

for now

but I will get there.

(Photo by Fallon Michael on Unsplash)

IBD and Grief

by Akhil Shridhar (Bengaluru, India)

A cup of coffee, a pen, and a napkin with the 5 stages of grief (denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance) sit on a blue table.

Each person has a unique story when it comes to their experience of coming to terms and living with IBD. What I realized after speaking to some of the patients who have struggled with the disease for quite a few years is that there is a similar pattern in our response to this life-altering event. The diagnosis, which in itself is a drawn-out process of striking out every other possible disease of the gut to finally settle on one condition, which includes countless blood tests, scans, endoscopies, colonoscopies with biopsies, like any other chronic condition, is just the beginning. When I came across the commonly used description for the stages of grief, I couldn’t help but notice the similarities.

The stages of grief are commonly described using the Kübler-Ross model, which outlines five stages that people often go through when dealing with loss or significant change. These stages are not linear, meaning people may experience them in different orders or revisit certain stages multiple times. The stages are Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and Acceptance. With our diagnosis of a chronic condition, we experience a profound shift in reality that can evoke similar responses: 

Denial

Initially we struggle to accept the diagnosis, believing it to be a mistake or downplaying its seriousness. For most of us who are coming across IBD for the first time, usually without any family history, this sounds familiar. I would perhaps lean towards the latter, as a history of psoriasis, a similarly chronic condition, majorly influenced my decisions, which I would come to regret later.

Anger

As reality sinks in, we often have feelings of unfairness and frustration. This anger is usually targeted at our body, medical professions and, in most cases, our loved ones. I found myself feeling guilty of my circumstances, angry at the doctors for not understanding my concerns and addressing them, which feels ironic, and frustrated with my loved ones for downplaying the symptoms.

Bargaining

We then attempt to negotiate our way out of the situation, trying alternative treatments, lifestyle changes, or even stopping medications altogether. Due to my previous experience with psoriasis and other circumstances, I found myself slowly stopping medications. As expected, when the symptoms started flaring up again, I looked into alternative treatment that had shown good results for my psoriasis, a grave mistake which put me in the severe Crohn's category taking me years to recover from.

Depression

As we finally come to terms with the condition’s long-term implications, a sense of loss and hopelessness follows, leading to sadness, withdrawal, or a loss of motivation. Although with IBD being a disease of the gut, this just adds to the list of causes for depression for many of us.

Acceptance

Over time, we adapt and find ways to manage our condition and integrate it into our lives. We begin to accept the new normal and find strength and purpose in this new journey. Five years into this journey, I find myself here, a veteran I say to myself, with a new resolve to help others navigate theirs.

The emotional and psychological journey of adapting to a life-altering event closely resembles a grief-like path. Chronic conditions not only impact our physical health but also our identities, relationships, and goals, making the process of adjusting and coping essential. It's important to note that these stages are a framework, not a one-size-fits-all process. People grieve in unique ways, and other emotions like guilt, confusion, or relief might also play a role.

This is why advocacy can be an incredibly powerful tool to make a difference in helping individuals by providing awareness and education, building a resource network, or helping in accessing resources. It is also important that we encourage empathy and patience with caregivers, family members and society as a whole to provide the required support during these challenging times. For someone going through the journey, engaging in advocacy themselves can be transformative and empowering. On a larger scale, advocacy is also necessary for shaping policies and systems that lead to improved healthcare policies, workplace accommodations, or social programs.

I encourage everyone to seek help and, whenever possible, help out others, as getting diagnosed with IBD can be a deeply personal experience, but one should not be forced to navigate it alone.

(Image credit: marekuliasz from Getty Images)

Potential IBD Accommodations for Teachers and Students (from a NYS Teacher)

by Kaitlyn Niznik (New York, U.S.A.)

This infographic was created from discussions with other teachers in the United States living with IBD.  Through those conversations, I realized that the workforce can be a scary and precarious place for people living with chronic illness.  As a unionized, tenured teacher in a public school, I acknowledge I am in a privileged position to disclose my IBD.  However, a teacher or student can choose not to divulge their chronic condition for a number of reasons including job instability or the fear of being singled out.  I made half of my graphic focus on discreet ways to manage your IBD within the education system without revealing personal health information.  This half includes having an emergency supply pack, trusted contacts that you can call for assistance, and knowing the location of private bathrooms instead of public stalls. 

The other half of my picture illustrates ways a student with an IBD can pursue written accommodations to protect them at school.  These include obtaining an Individualized Education Program (IEP) or 504 Plan after their doctor writes a note confirming their diagnosis and its impact on the student's daily life.  In the student's records, they would be classified under the "Other Health Impairment" category and this form would be reviewed and adapted annually.  Parents, teachers, and district personnel would work together to create an IEP or 504 plan that supports the student's needs, helps them manage their illness, and works to reduce the student’s stress in an educational environment.  Teachers with an IBD can also present a doctor’s note to their district to receive reasonable workplace accommodations. 

Sky also belongs to the birds without wings

By Aiswarya Asokan (South India)

A group of birds flies over the ocean. A pastel blue, pink, and yellow dawn is in the background.

A couple of decades ago, when schools were shut for summer vacations, all the cousins returned to Grandpa’s house to spend the vacation. It was bedtime, and all the children secured their place in the bed, waiting for Grandpa to narrate a story before falling asleep. It goes: 

“Once upon a time, there lived birds without wings, which deprived them of the joy of flying freely in the sky and experiencing the vast beauty of sky and land. Therefore, it spends all its time in the land, trying hard to find its food and merely surviving.

This made the birds extremely sad, and it was believed God had cursed them. Time passed, and it became even more difficult to thrive, then God called them and ordered them to carry the weights of some more objects. Birds pleaded to the god to take these weights away from them, but he disagreed. At last, there was no other way other than to carry this burden.

But to the bird’s surprise, it started floating in the air; the weights that dragged it down were now enabling it to fly. What a pleasant surprise: the weights that caused a burden to the birds have transformed into wings. Only then did the birds realize the weight it carried this long has equipped it to fly high and conquer heights.” 

After all the fun and games and a cozy bedtime story, I dozed off to sleep but woke up abruptly with a bit of discomfort inside my tummy; I had to throw up immediately. Everyone had to wake up in the middle of the night and clean the mess; maybe my stomach was upset from something I ate the day before.

Such incidents occurred again and again, maybe vomiting or else diarrhoea, sometimes some uncomfortable feeling inside accompanied by headaches (later on I learned that these feelings can be named nausea, bloating, abdominal cramps, and heartburn…). I hated any kind of physical exertion, whether a dance class, sports, or walking; Physical Education periods were my worst nightmare. Getting into menarche doubled down the sufferings. I was always clumsy with things and had a lot of pain carrying stacks of notebooks from one classroom to another, carrying my school bag, and climbing stairs to reach the classroom. I used to pant like I had participated in a marathon after making it to the classroom each day. It even demanded a good deal of energy just to complete a proper head and body wash. I used to collapse into the bed after a proper shower. But how to gain some energy back? Okay, let us concentrate on food, but however you try to stuff yourself with food, it just bounces back, putting yourself in much more trouble. And visits to the doctor turned out to be a normal stunt just to repeat the cycle once again. Innumerable nights spent tossing to and fro in bed, squeezing the pillow, with frequent visits to the washroom in between, wondering when I could breathe in peace with a perplexed mind not knowing what’s going wrong. This is usually followed by a week where you have to live with an empty stomach if you need to forget the pain.

It is frustrating to navigate a life that is like walking over eggshells. Even the so-called happy normal days come with a lifespan of a firefly. It's so unpredictable, and all your efforts to mend it can go in vain. This leaves you with a heavy mind full of rage and despair. On the flip side, this journey gives you the resilience, endurance, and wisdom that no exams or university education can ever give you. Once you harness this energy, then the sky is your limit. It teaches you to be humble, empathetic, and to live in the moment. But still sometimes I feel deep inside Mother Teresa was right when she said, “The hunger for love is much more difficult to remove than the hunger for bread.”

Image from Unsplash.

Winds of Perseverance: The Crohn’s Chronicles

by Rifa Tusnia Mona (Dhaka, Bangladesh)

Four years ago, I first heard the term IBD. Before that, I had spent years trapped in a cycle of unexplained symptoms and misdiagnoses. Then, one doctor finally said it—a possibility that changed everything. That moment marked the beginning of a long, lone, challenging journey—one that has shaped me in ways I never expected.

Living with Crohn’s disease hasn’t been easy, especially in a society where few understand it. My family had never heard of it. Neighbors mistook it for a simple gastric issue. Friends casually referred to it as an ulcer. Over time, I found myself explaining my condition again and again, trying to make sense of it for both myself and others.

It was during this confusing time that I found comfort in unexpected places.

Chad, Pete Davidson, and the Art of Indifference

I’ve always loved watching Saturday Night Live, especially the Weekend Update and parody commercials. But after my diagnosis, I found myself particularly drawn to one character—Chad, played by Pete Davidson. Chad never reacts to anything with more than a casual “Okay” or “Cool”. His simplicity and indifference fascinated me. Most importantly, it sort of aided me whenever I got tired while explaining my condition or responding to stigmas. Watching Chad made me realize that not every question deserves a long, exhausting answer—sometimes, a simple response was enough. Realistically, it saved my valuable energy.

Then, I discovered something else—Pete Davidson himself has Crohn’s disease. Watching him use comedy to talk about his struggles, even the painful ones, gave me a new perspective. He didn’t let his illness define him. Instead, he turned it into a story—one he could laugh about. That idea stayed with me.

MrBeast, A Semicolon, and a Shift in Perspective

My symptoms flared up in 2019, just as I was stepping into my role as an environmentalist, organizing startup competitions, and representing my university at environmental fests. Suddenly, everything I had been building felt uncertain. It was as if life had placed a semicolon in my path—not a full stop, but a pause, forcing me to adjust. Throughout the rest of my university moments, I was on the verge of dropping out several times.

That’s when I came across MrBeast’s story. I learned, he, too, has Crohn’s. In one of his videos, he shared how he learned to manage his illness by changing his mindset—choosing to focus on what he could do instead of what he couldn’t. That struck a chord with me. I realized that, like him, I could try turning my struggle into a strength. 

Whenever pain came, I tried shifting my focus. Instead of asking, Why me?, I reminded myself that others might be facing even greater hardships like terminal illnesses. At least I am not dying—that was something to be grateful for. To save myself from stress-induced abdominal cramps, the idea acted like armor.

A Win That Came with Questions

This year, for the first time in five years, I received genuinely good news: I was awarded a scholarship to study my dream subject for my master’s. Out of thousands of applicants worldwide, only 100 women were chosen. I was overjoyed.

But when I shared the news, many people responded with an unexpected question: "Don’t they ask for a medical clearance?"

It made me wonder—how many others have felt the weight of these doubts? How many have been made to feel like their dreams should be measured against their diagnosis?

This article is for them.

To those fighting this invisible battle, I want you to know that your struggles do not define your capabilities. The world may doubt you, but that can be freeing. If you succeed, great. If you don’t, they never expected you to anyway. Either way, you win.

As someone fighting such stigmas in everyday life, I know how vital IBD advocacy is! So, a heartfelt thank you to CCYAN for giving me this space to share my journey—and to you, my dear reader, for walking this path with me. Keep going—You’re stronger than you think.

Linked videos:

Chad Horror Movie - SNL © Copyrighted by Saturday Night Live

https://youtu.be/fF6gExZu-2M?si=iW30vRB3rx-B41mG

What is Crohn's Disease????? © Copyrighted by MrBeast

https://youtu.be/pzlPJmNyepA?si=DlMUgnyYB4Gwxh8S

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Disability & IBD: A summary and thoughts on “Measuring Disability in IBD: The IBD Disability Index”

by Lexi Hanson (Missouri, U.S.A.)

A brown wall with a white spray-painted ‘disabled’ symbol.

In his article “Measuring Disability in IBD: The IBD Disability Index,” Colombel discusses how IBD is viewed in literature and society. He mentions that IBD has received limited attention due to two main reasons. First, IBD has been considered less disabling compared to other chronic diseases, like multiple sclerosis, leading to underestimation of its impact. Second, there has been confusion in the literature about the true definition of "disability" in relation to IBD, with many definitions that do not align with the World Health Organization's (WHO) standard. 

Disability, according to the WHO, refers to the objective problems patients face across various health domains, which is distinct from subjective quality of life. Challenges specific to IBD, such as access to toilets and dietary restrictions, affect disability, and Colombel argues, should still be measured using the same WHO definition applied to all diseases. 

To address this gap, the IBD disability index was developed through a comprehensive process, including a systematic literature review, patient interviews, an expert survey, and a cross-sectional study across multiple continents. The final index incorporates a range of factors such as sleep, energy, body image, pain, and environmental influences (e.g., access to healthcare). It aims to provide a standardized measure of disability in IBD patients. 

The IBD disability index is currently being validated and is expected to help in clinical trials and research. Some questions in the index include sleep, body image, and pain. Once validated, Colombel believes it could influence patient care by raising awareness about disability in IBD and guiding healthcare interventions. It could also help identify predictors of disability and support the development of strategies to prevent disease progression and long-term disability. 

In clinical practice, while the index may not be used daily, it could inform clinicians to ask patients about issues that affect their disability, improving patient care and satisfaction. Measuring disability in IBD will ultimately lead to better understanding and management of the disease, enhancing both clinical outcomes and quality of life for patients.

My thoughts:

This is so fascinating to me, as someone with IBD. The comparison of how disabled someone is based on how impacted they are by their circumstances – and if they can make it through the cut-throat application process to be considered “truly” disabled by the government – seems to lead to isolation of people with chronic conditions like IBD.

When we’re quick to make comparisons or “rank” disability, we alienate others who may not experience disability exactly as we do, but who still may understand our lifestyle or lived experience more so than able-bodied individuals.

I also think there's a unique aspect of being in "remission" with IBD that others don’t always understand, which makes it complex. Sometimes, my IBD impacts me more than it might seem to others, but because the effects aren’t always visible, it’s a concept that can be difficult for people to fully understand.

Having an "index" to show how IBD affects people's lives could really help shine a light on the struggles many face. It could be a way to put into words the challenges that aren’t always visible, making it easier for others to understand just how much this condition impacts daily life – especially in contexts like healthcare appointments, where patients sometimes feel their experiences are not being heard or validated by providers.

Encouraging healthcare providers to use a client-centered, holistic approach when listening to us can lead to a healthier relationship with the healthcare field, and additions like training and feedback surveys could also help in this aspect. In the meantime, we can start by sharing our IBD experiences (through blogs, videos, campaigns, or social media), to help others understand the real-life impacts of IBD, in hope that spreading awareness and knowledge provides some insight into what we go through!

Citation: Colombel JF. Measuring Disability in IBD: The IBD Disability Index. Gastroenterol Hepatol (NY). 2013 May; 9(5): 300-2. https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC3740806/

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